Wednesday, December 17, 2003
What's with me?!
haiz..
today(16/12)my off day..
wanted to go my darling's hse in the morning but nv..
haiz..
den woke up at 1 plus.
was so tired..
haiz..
den my dad kpt asking me to do things lorz..
damn piss-ed with him noe..
he noe i wanna go out den purposely make me do tis n tat..
so sucky can..
haiz..
nvm..msg my dear tell her wat time n where to meet..
was so anxious to see her coz miss her so much but tis idiotic dad of my..
purpose wanna wash the stupid fish tank..
den i can't go n bathe..
sick rite..
told him to let me bathe 1st he scold me..
kao..
den i ren lorz..
juz bcoz he delay my time i've decided to take cab dwn to meet dear..
coz or nt no time for her to eat..
coz meet up with her the main purpose is to eat..
haiz..
aft bathing str8 away left my hse n take cab..
n tis sickening driver..
he sux sia..
told him to drive faster n he said ok..
den ended up so long can..
n guess wat..
the sickening cab fare is much more ex den wat i usuali take to TM lorz..
kao..
was so piss-ed alr den such things hpn make me more piss-ed..
den nvm..
i called my dear coz left v lil time for her to eat den quickly called her to asked where's she..
den she nv hear her fone ringing lorz..
n i'm alr so piss-ed plus she nt picking up my call i'm more angry lorz..
den when she finali pick up i told her where i m n she came..
den while walking to ljs..
she's lk walking so slowly while i'm so xin ji for her nt having enuff time to eat..
n i was piss-ed she didn't even asked me y..
was so angry till i stand at one side to cry..
can u imagine..
haiz..
my feeling at that time was so mixed up n i was so confuse..
trying nt to get angry with her but i can't..
den i take it on the wall agn..
haiz..
hit the wall
AGN..
haiz..
den while i was crying she didn't asked y but i guess she noe i'm piss-ed or angry lahz..
coz when i'm piss-ed or angry I'll hit the wall wan..
den she sayang me lahz of coz..
den i didn't wanna get angry with her coz she's innocent n ignorant..
dunno y i'm lk tat..
den i was lk quick walk faster or nt u not enuff time to eat..
den she can say den dun eat lorz..
when i heard tat i was so angry lorz..
coz i can't afford her to faint agn..
moreover she's working..
haiz..
she fainted once n i'm scared tat she will faint agn..
tat's y i always make sure she had her meals..
haiz..
but she said tat n didn't noe hw much i mind her saying tat..
haiz...
den i walked very fast to ljs n seat on a sit n started to cry..
i cried lk as if someone pass away lk tat noe..
i dunno hw was i suppose to feel n very confused with my feeling so i cried to express them..
haiz..
den she still can walk very slowly to come n seat infront of me..
haiz..
den she started to sayang me and all..
den ask me not to cry anymore etc etc..
haiz..
den i wanna tell her the reason why i was angry wif her n y i'm so piss-ed..
den aft tat when i start to calm dwn le den tell her y i lk tat..
den no time for her to eat..
haiz..
xin so tong..
den while i was crying i said sorry to her..
telling her i very useless..
can't even give her eat a proper meal b4 her work..
den i told her i buy mac for her aft her work..
den of coz being my wonderful darling so understanding..
noe i v tite tis few days..
den so understanding..
haiz..
acuatli she didn't wan me to spent $ wan..
but i gave her the sad sad look den she agree..
hee..
reali love her so much sia..
haiz..
damn nice of her noe..
haiz..
haiz..
den aft tat tot she late noe..
coz was 4.55pm le..
den we hurried up the lift..
den walked very fast..
haha..
den when reached she faster clock in..
and is lk one more min n she's late..
haha..
so lucky..
niway when she go work as usual..
haiz..
got nthg to do..
called my beloved 'jie'..
den tok awhile n she can't meet me coz got sumthing on..
den called mei hui coz she tat time told me to call her coz urgent..
so called her..
juz nice she knock off..
den asked her to pei me lorz..
wahahahahahaha..
soon bian tell me tat urgent thing she nid to tell me..
wahahahaha..
one stone kill two bird..
hee..
so smart..
niway it's been a long time since i last saw tis gal noe..
she always got lotsa things to update me wan..
hee..
den while waiting for her tat time i was lk in the video shop for lk 1 hr plus..
haha..
stand there to watch home run..
wahahahaha..
den she came..
she when to my work plc..
bought the $1 chicken wing..
den was sir Francis..
haiz..
where's my mdm Carmen??!!
where she disappear to..
haiz..
miss her so much..
but niway den saw my darling..
n she saw us too..
hee..
den she said sumthing which the both of us didn't catch it..
hee..
den aft taking the chicken wings le den left le..
den we when to cartel..
was wondering if anna is working nt..
den was rite..
anna reali working today..
hee..
tok to her awhile den hui n i when to eat ya kuan..
coz both of us r hungry..
den we lk damn broke can..
dig out as much $ as we had juz to eat tat ya kuan..
wahahahahahaha..
den haiz..
tis gal nv fail to make me luff no matter hw sad i was..
den of coz she didn't noe i got cry lahz..
juz dun wanna tok bout it to her n njoy the time we had..
coz we r lk so bz with our own life..
den we walked walked ard..
den she told me bout the urgent things she wanna tell me..
but is a
SECRET..
wahahahaha..
cant tell ppl..
hee..
den i've alr decided wat to get my darling for x'mas le..
plan to make a puzzle with her dog pic den gif her..
wahahahahaha..
nice rite..
my god..
all thanx to mei hui tat gave me tis idea..
wahahahahaha..
*sssshhhh..
ppl..
beta nt tell my darling ah..
okok..
hee..
mimi..
*ssshhh..
hee..
den aft tat when to courts n was playing finding nemo..
wahahahahaha..
the both of us was lk standing rite in front of the tv can..
wahahahahahahaha..
den kpt luffing n luffing n luffing..
den aft tat the show end le n we r lk standing thru out the show..
den my leg pain..
haiz..
my leg got prob wan..
recently get pain very easily..
haiz..
is my knee cap..
haiz..
den walked her to the mrt station..
aft tat when to starbucks..
n seat there to wait for my darling..
den to kill time..
i read all my msg in my fone n deleting sum..
coz no space mahz..
wahahahaha..
i v smart hor..
haha..
den aft tat met dar le den go ta bo mac for her coz she didn't eat the whole day..
den sent her bac to her door step..
den i came bac..
hee..
i was so hungry till i go opp. my hse de 7-e to buy bread n prata to eat at 2am can..
wahahahahaha..
den haiz..
nw v tired..
tml work surly v slow wan..
closing buffet
agn can..
haiz..
hate it..
but nvm..
shall try my best to do it fast..
haiz..
i reali miss all my clsmates noe..
everyone lk most of them working..
esp for my bao bei jessie..
but she muz go her bro shop hlp out..
haiz..
den lk seek, dee working day n off day all lk so diff..
haiz..
den v long nv go noel's hse le..
den tat dawn think she rotting at hm..
haha..
den sonia..
dunno if she's still in s'pore nt..
haiz..
den melly will nt come bac to s'pore till lk late dec n nv come bac to s'pore agn..
haiz..
reali miss tis ppl so much..
fang ru dunno hw's she..
my god..
lydia in hk..
haiz..
can reali see everyone has got their own life to lead..
i can't imagine nxt time when u graduate..
will we still continue to kp in touch?
haiz..
the song graduation is reali very meaningful noe..
everytime hear tat song makes me feel sad..
i think wat will all my frenz become when we graduate..
haiz..
4/3 ppls..
reali miss u guys a lot sia..
can't wait to see u all..
haiz..
niway..
we'll see each other real soon..
haiz..
can u imagine..
'n' level results is gonna be out soon..
real soon..
haiz..
fear tat my Eng wun pass n tat's it..
haiz..
wat to do..
scared mw oso no use..
can't do anything bout it..
but if i say i'm nt scared of my result tat's a lie..
i'm juz trying to looking on the brite side of life..
but..
haiz..
on the surface it works..
but deep inside me..
i'm trembling..
haiz..
dunno hw to face my parents..
my relative..
haiz..
*argh..
think of them makes me so sick..
always compare compare..
so wat if i'm na..
so wat if my studies is nt good..
haiz..
forget it..
vaneh singing..
"always look on the brite side of life..
doo doo.. doo doo.. doo doo.. doo doo.."
haiz..
okok..
tml shall be my doom day..
haiz..
okok..
tat's it..
if u guess dun see me online for the nxt few days means i'm dead..
haiz..
okok..
got to go prepare for work le..
i mean go buy food for darling's brkfast..
or not she at hm nthg to eat..
den I'll go work aft tat..
oh no..
got no apron..
haiz..
shall borrow frm darling..
okok..
and muz go iron uniform..
or not tonite too tired to iron le..
haiz..
thinking bout my results make me feel so moody..
haiz..
ok..juz hope tat either joanna or mdm Carmen got work ltr nite shift can le..
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