Saturday, April 23, 2005
Heyhey...
Haiz.
Many things happen in my life.
Ups and Downs.
Everyone has that in life.
But mine is a total mess.
Can you imagine!
Haiz.
Recently i've found out many things about her.
And i really can't imagine what this is all about?!
Is this a game that i have to play?!
I'm frighten to carry on working there.
But i have no choose.
Is so true when ppl say sometimes is better not to know the truth or not to know too much about someone.
Gosh.
This is bad.
Real bad.
I'm so in a big mess.
I'm like the cause of everything.
I'm like the trouble-maker can.
I'm feeling damn bad.
Damn horrible.
My mind is full of those freaking mess.
everything like as if i started it.
But i have absolutely no intension of messing up my own life and perhaps others life oso.
Haiz.
Why this things always happen to me?!
I should ask myself that.
The thing is i never ever wanted all this to happen you see.
Haiz.
What to do.
Well.
I'm tired of life.
Everyday there's just so many conflicts at work.
At times i just so wish that i'm never close to anyone before.
That settles everything.
Haiz.
Well, the thing is there's always a price to pay everything.
Nothing comes for free.
Tho everytime they treat me with many things and treat me nice.
But by knowing what a part-timer are not suppose to know is the price to pay.
I'm just a part-timer.
I don't think i should know so much.
I think i should just work, go home, go home, work.
Not to talk too much to anyone.
That will help a lot.
Haiz what the hell.
Am i really helping them?
Did i really help them?!
Then why didn't she tell me anything of that sort?!
Haiz.
Why do i have to hear it from someone elses mouth?!
Why can't she just tell me right from the start so that i would be more careful with my words and would not have created any misunderstanding between so many ppl.
If she's really the one then why would she wanna pull someone else who is totally innocent into this picture.
At times i really don't know who's telling me the truth.
How?!
Who the hell is talking sense sia?!
Gosh.
Haiz.
This is so bad.
Haiz.
All righty.
I'm done typing.
Anyway my Ipod mini will come soon i hope.
Haiz.
Well,have already listed all the songs that i wanna download and there's still a lot more that i'm thinking off.
Is just that i'm waiting for the thing only.
Haha.
Okok.
Got to go.
Am glad that we are contacting each other agn altho things may never be the same agn.
I just felt that i just still can't get over you.
So i just seat quitely and not push anything and not hurt anyone else.
Yup.
That's all i have to say.
I'm single agn.
But my hrt dose have any space for anyone at the momnet.
I don't know when will it be available.
All i know is that at this very moment, nothing's gonna change the feeling i'm having for you.
Well, that is just a feeling you see.
Yup.
The feeling is there.
But i'll not know what will hpn.
Maybe nothing will ever hpn.
Which i'm quite sure of.
But i'm not gonna give up lah.
That's what i know.
There will always be this hope in me, even if it's just like 0.0000001%.
Is still a kind of hope.
I'm just deceving myself.
Let me be then.
Haiz.
Okok.
Enough is enough.
Haiz.
I shall not dwell in anything.
Trying to "move on" which simply means no to think but am just not moving on. ;p
All righty.
Bye!
♥ Purple Love™ addicted to purple at: 3:25 PM
