Thursday, November 24, 2005
what the fuck!!!
i'm so fucking pissed-off till i cried...
u're so fucking selfish!
many things hpn before and i only complain to a few about ur selfish act and now it's hpning agn!
fuck u!
how i want to get MY OWN LAPTOP BADLY!
how i wished i could have MY OWN ROOM!
told u once i'm home that i need to use the comp to complete my homework and sent it to my teacher by TODAY!
i did half way yesterday till 3am+ and i have lesson at 8am!
i couldnt wake up and ended up skipping sch!
didnt get mc coz i dun have the money to!
nvm...
i told i could finish it fast by tonight AFTER MY WORK WHEN I GET HOME!
i'm kind enough to let u used when u're using it for no reason...
jus for the sake of using it!
and i jus seat there watch tv and do nothing!
whereby i can do my work fast and slp early!
but nvm...
i kp quite...
till i cant take it and jus asked u if u're done coz i need to sent my work to my teacher by tonight and u flare up and said it takes time to shut dwn the windows too..
fine!
i kpt quite agn...
then after logging out u switch off the lights!
i've always been using the com in the dark!
each time i used it is always in the dark!
coz u want to slp!
and u think in this world only u need to slp others dont!
u think only u have to wake up early and others dont!
i always used the comp in the dark when u can used it once u're hm when u switch on the lights to used it.
and u jus turn it off when u're going to bed and others is still using the comp!
u only think abt urself!
nobody but urself!
not only this incident!
always when u're slping u would turn dwn the tv volume!
when i am slping u dun give a damn!
the lights is still on and the tv vol is as loud!
do i have to do it myself.
if that is so then u wun be happy either!
then why always before doing it u jus cant think abt others!
selfish!
everyone have to give in to u.
be it, when u wanna slp.
when u wanna use the comp!
wat is this!
i'm always using the comp last.
late at night when everyone is fast aslp coz that's when everyone have finish using it!
and doing my work till EARLY in the morning when is time for others to wake up then i turn in to bed!
now u noe why i'm always skipping sch!
i'm so fucking angry!
why everyone thinks that i love to skip sch and they dun think abt what hpn the night b4.
i have to work too.
and i'm working and schooling at the same time.
wat abt u guys.
only work and not schooling!
do u think i wanna work and study at the same time!
getting all the shit at work and have to come home and get all this shit from u when i can be home earlier if i'm not working to complete my work and when u're home i could be slp already!
if daddy have not owe ppl money i would have stopped work by now...
if mummy can afford to buy me all my tools and components for my sch work and the notes and pay for my fare, i wun even wanna work aft sch.
is only excuses when i said there is a shortage of staff at my work plc...
coz i can jolly well walked out and the cafe will still be able to run w/o me!
then why am i working so hard!
becoz daddy owe ppl money...
mummy not earning much...
and worst is, now is sch hols...
daddy got no income!
i want a addidas jacket...
i want a leivs jeans...
i want to get branded clothes...
i want to get a laptop...
i want to get a digi cam..
i dun have the money to get them...
when u've got so many branded goods...
and whenever we wanna borrow it u're jus as selfish as ever and not lend it to us!
when i have my mp3[is not even of any brand] u borrowed it...
i'm so unwilling to lend it to u..
but i still did...
why do u have to be so selfish!
why cant i have good stuff like all my other frens have...
why others can have a few addidas jacket and i have none...
why can others afford brand stuff and i have none!
why r u always so forturnate to have so many branded stuff and i cant!
why do all ur frens treat u so nice to get u that digi cam and branded watch and other branded stuff all this yrs and i get none!
i dun go for branded stuff coz i cant afford any...
is not that i dun like any!
i seldom shop coz i cant afford to get them then y shop!
if i shop, i see things that i like i could only kp it to myself coz i'll never have the money to get them!
u have a few pairs of levis jeans i have none!
u have a couple of belts, i have none!
u have addidas jacket, i have none!
u have so many branded watch, i have NONE!!!!!
i'm feeling so fucking shit inside but no one knows!
i dun want to make known to everyone even tho i know i am by typing it here...
but i dunno where else and what else i can do to pour it all out!!!!
i cried alone in the dark but u'll never know!
u'll never know what i'm feeling coz u have had the things that i never have!!!!!!
wat the fuck!
i'm so not gonna slp!
i cant afford to skip sch anymore!
i've not submit any MCs this sem!
so i cant skip anymore..
i'm so gonna be bebared for this sem soon...
if this goes on...
haiz...
i believe i can dun slp and still be able to go to sch tml..
and after sch, go to work...
and aft work then i'll come hm and slp!
is not as if i've not done it b4...
i've not try not slping and going to sch then aft which to work then hm...
but other long hrs i've tried b4...
so i guess this shldnt be a prob then...
haiz...
since fri sch starts i think at 1pm or 11am...
so..
yah...
and i'm working with linda, so shldnt be a prob...
haiz...
i feel so much better now...
but the sight of u makes me boiled up...
even tho i may be talking to u like nthg hpn...
but deep dwn inside i turly hates u so fucking much!
i'm living together with u so i have to pretend that i'm fine with u.
get it!
is not that i'm ok with u!
haiz.
okok...
why make myself so angry...
haiz...
not worth it...
alright...
i'm done typing and venting my angers...
i gotta continue my work and sent to my teacher alr...
haiz..
i'm already so pissed-off and yet the stupid files kp flying here and there in front of the fucking screen making me so fucking irritated...
wat a bunch of irritance[i think that's how it's spelled, lazy to check out the dictionary]..
byez!
talked too much...
♥ Purple Love™ addicted to purple at: 1:22 AM
Tuesday, November 22, 2005
haiz...
sometimes i jusfeel like walking out of my work place..
i'm working so unhappily there then no point staying on...
but agn, i can only talk to sally when she's not working...
we can only click when we're off work...
yest she was sick then while working, as usual, she kp scolding me then very unhappy with me lah..
so i just dun bother and did my job lor..
anyway it was my fault lah...
so i cant blame anyone lah..
but jus because of that she's like picking on every other things that i do lah..
haiz..
so niway when she said i can go hm then i damn attitude lah..
i jus ok lor..
then aft doing wat i was doing then punch out str8 away..
haha..
then she talk to me like a fren fren lah..
then she jus say, eh i didnt put u for work tml, which is today..
then i was like orh ok...
then walked away..
haha..
attitude right?!
my god..
haha..
but aft that i was ok lah..
u noe i angry awhile only lor..
then aft that still seat and hlp her drink lah..
haiz..
coz she said..
eh, drink leh..
then i told her i dun wan..
then she was like, hlp me drink will die ah..
then i was like fine lah..
haha..
then she so happy..
coz she a bit high lah..
yah lor..
so as i said..
i only click with her when we're off work then only we can talk abt anything under the sun, moon or star..
haha..
yah lor..
coz working wise, i'm still not very expert lah..
tho i worked almost a yr le lah..
haiz..
there's always a but lah..
still..
my skills is not that gd yet lah..
haha..
yah lor..
then think cant meet her expectation lah..
yah lor...
haha..
k lah..
need to get going le..
byez...
♥ Purple Love™ addicted to purple at: 2:25 AM
Sunday, November 20, 2005
oh well...
it has been so long since i blogged i guess...
nthg much hpn-ing in my life...
i'm so damn broke...
but sally kow told me that she counted my pay which i will be taking this coming 28th...
it's gonna be $1000++ BEFORE deducting the stupid CPF...
After deducting CPF will be $800++...
hahahahaha...
at least better then nthg lah..
haha..
hmmm...
now i kp working lor...
today worked damn tiring sia...
so super busy and the net sales[w/o GST] was $6030...
and with the GST is $6700++...
now u know what i mean when i said busy..
is really got no time to rest lah..
even brk oso damn rush coz those staff working is those with lil experience...
so no choice..
haiz..
then alrite..
let me tok abt this week when i was working in closing with sally kow few day ago...
i was so darn unhappy with her and she was so darn pek chek with me...
haha..
i dun care lah..
attitude her for the longest time...
2days ok..
haiz...
makes me so dun wanna go work on the 2nd day lah..
this is how the story goes... ... ...
we are selling 4sets of new dishes lah...
whereby 3 set is perpared by the sandwich-maker..
fine...
i was new...
1st day doing it and seeing it...
she was so expected me to know and understand wat she mean lah..
pls lor..
not everyone is born smart and think by saying out i can know wat isit she was meaning w/o showing me how to do lah..
she thinks that i could read her mond and know wat is she picturing like tat lah..
by saying it i can pic it in a different way as her lah...
she thinks everyone pic the same thing as she does meh..
then she was saying me the whole day since i stepped into the counter...
so wat if she had a bad day...
it has nthg got to do with me..
i jus started working for the day whereby is 4.30pm...
alr half the day gone..
how the hell i know wat hpn b4...
all i know was when i reached everyone was alr not happy..
nobody was joking ard...
everyone is so serious and i knew that the weather isit very good..
but well..
as i said...
it has nthg got to do with me!!!!!
guess wat she said to me...
the pic is there cant u jus see and follow...
did u see the pic with that thing outside...
didnt i tell u to put that 1st, why did u put the other one 1st...
can u dun make me so pek chek not..
i dun wanna be pek chek wan lor..
is i see u do till i feel pek chek lor...
so frm the time she say me i alr not happy le lor..
is like she not happy oso dun need to like that wan lah..
then i kp burning things coz my moral was alr damn low that day and couldnt concentrate all becoz of her lah..
kp saying me lor..
is like it's jus so affecting lah..
not only me lor..
other staff oso felt the same way too...
then that whole night working my face was totally black!
super BLACK!
u ppl should know how black my face was..
that was like after so long i ever had such a black face lor...
so i jus kpt quite and jus kp doing my stuff and dun bother abt her when she kp saying and saying like a bee beside kp buzzling lor..
so i let her be lah...
then coz aftnoon i bought rice for her then she asked how much i was alr damn unhappy with her alr then i jus say i dunno..
then she asked 2.50 or 3 i said i dunno..
then i think she know i not happy le then she cant be bothered to tok to me anymore...
haha..
then at the end of the day we didnt tok lor..
i didnt even dare to asked her anything lah..
so when we finished work walking to the locker she asked me..
when i working morning..
actually i know when but i jus told her i dunno..
and i didnt asked why only a few min ltr then i asked...
then she told me she wanna watch harry potter...
then she said if wanna watch mus booked the tix coz sure solded out wan...
then i jus said yah..
then after changing she was if i wanna go drink i told her no..
then we went different ways...
haha..
the next day oso got another set which i've not come across then she was pek chek agn lah..
but that say my mood wasnt so bad at least i can still bear with it...
haha...
then like that lor..
i hate to work there now lah..
haiz..
jus becoz is busy then everyone jus wanna shout here and there..
she accused me today lah..
then i told her str8 to her face is not me...i didnt do it...
then i jus walked away..
haha..
so cool rite..
haha..
frm now on i'm gonna be like that..
since she's so different now...
mayb she's having some prob at home...
i know is ture coz she told me..
but then still tot she's able to know wat to do the right thing at the right time..
haiz..
but nvm...
nowadays i dun tok to her unless she toks to me..
haha..
i'm jus gonna be a different person now..
i worked with her tok less then 10 sentence today..
haha..
hmm...
today damn tired..
work till leg pain...
think is coz damn long nv work so hard le..
kp walking up and dwn..
leg really very very tired and pain...
haiz...
gotta go slp le...
or not tml cant wake up end up get *f the whole day worst...
haha...
hmm...
wonder if she still wanna go watch movie tml not..
haiz..
i didnt even bother to ask her lah..
haha..
she's like so feirce nowadays...
scared to even tok to her...
so cant be bothered lah..
if she dun wan i will have to plan something else..
she jus leave me hanging lah..
haiz..
not comfirm..
sianz...
hate this kind of thing lah..
haiz.
haiz.
haiz...
nitez!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
♥ Purple Love™ addicted to purple at: 2:20 AM
