Saturday, November 27, 2004
What's this world all about?!
Isit all about backstabbing ppl?!
Isit all about disliking one another but pretending to be frens?!
Isit all about disliking one without letting one know what's the reason?!
Isit all about disliking someone all of a sudden?!
What the hell is this?!
Was confrencing on the phone with lydia and hui.
Talk to them and found out i wasnt being paranoid at all.
I felt like shit each time i'm out.
What the fuck is this.
I'm dun think you treated me as fren.
Ppl are just putting on a stupid mask.
Didnt reveal your ownself.
I've had this fucking feeling so long ago.
But i've kept it with me.
Didnt wanna burst out.
But i just couldn't stand it anymore.
Time and time agn ppl trying to be concern.
Trying hard to provide myself wrong.
But what the fuck i get.
No reply.
Or either that no thank you.
You were once caring and thoughtful.
But it's all gone.
You've change so much!
You think i'm only concern about you?!
I do that to others as well.
You've provide to me that i was right from the start.
By your action, it shows everything.
Now i've see it clearly.
Is better this way.
I wun be wasting anymore msgs on such a person.
What's the pt?!
Trying to hlp me save my bill?!
If i really want to i will.
I don't need your hlp by not replying,not even a thank you.
Even if i want to i wouldn't even msg you at all.
You dislike ppl to talk bad bahind your back.
Would rather the person tell you frankly why he/she is so unhappy with you.
But what the fuck you're doing now?
Is that how you treat a person back when you dun even want anyone to do the same on you.
I'll never wanna borrow anything from you anymore.
If you're so afraid that i'll spoil it then simlpy reject me.
Don't have to say such things behind my back.
You've never trusted me in anything.
Even when i was ard you make it so obvious.
You think you're the only one who knows how to cook.
Stop looking down on others.
You'll only trust your one and only beloved who ALREADY belongs to SOMEONE ELSE!
The two of you just wanna be so close that everyone is so gross up.
Eachtime i'm with you, i just feel so fucking extra.
Still say i wouldn't be.
But you've never understand how i actually felt.
Do everything together.
You think you're PL isit?!
Let me remind you again, she already belong to someone else!
What the fuck you want.
Stop putting on that stupid mask in front of me.
I've had enough.
Your life is just revolving ard hers.
Stop bothering her.
She doesn't belongs to you ONLY!
I hate to go out with you.
You make me feel like shit.
Do you know what is shit?
S.H.I.T!
Ppl ard you aint happy with you and you didnt know.
You fucking attitude is so unbearable that makes me hate you more each day.
Stop putting on the -i'm the biggest- kind of attitude.
You're aint that great afterall.
I wanna be a good fren.
Who's there to appreciate?!
What's this whole fucking world up to.
So many hatards,backstabber.
What are frens actually for?
I wanna be lock out from this fucking fake world.
Everyone is so fucking fake.
Nothing is real at all.
NOTHING!
If i wanna go anywhere i'll make sure if there's you,there wun be me.
I'm not gonna keep in contact with anyone anymore.
Except for lydia and hui.
The rest of the world is just so fake to live with.
I'm fucking sad over what a fren i have.
I don't care whatever i said is hurting anyone anymore.
Coz the things they do are much more hurting than my words-acts speaks louder than words-.
You've hurt others by your words as well.
You're the one who's being insensitive and yet saying others are insensitive.
It's only words that could either mean what one say or not.
But actions shows everything that couldn't be wrong.
I don't have to go back to school anymore.
So i don't give a damn.
Like it or not i've already said it.
I could be angry now.
This could be said in anger.
But even if i'm not angry anymore,
I'll still rmb what i've been thru and what i'm still going thru!
The kind of feeling you'll never know.
Coz everything have to be your way.
You're always the right one.
I know i aint any better either.
But everyone has their limits!
♥ Purple Love™ addicted to purple at: 6:45 AM
Thursday, November 25, 2004
Day out!!!
Gosh...
My legs...
Hahaha...
Had so much fun today..
Walked the whole day..
It's been a long time since i last enjoyed so much with my frens alr..
They are the best man..
Haha..
the most interesting part of the day is the night....
in the aftnoon everyone lk busy with diff things..
haha..
the so called bonding when we are nt seperated was when we're at far east and met tiffy..
wanted to watch movie..
but was full house..
so decided to haf our dinner..
we took lk ten million yrs to decided where to eat..
haha..
finally went to far east..
saw jane they all n tiffy was with them..
they were jus seating there and tiffy decided to join us..
so we went to hans and haf dinner together..
aft eating we went to somehow walk ard awhile and decided to go clerk quay.
took a bus dwn to monks..
walk ard lk a tourist and went to those shops and they bought scarfs.
aft which we decided to go espalanade..
wanted to walk there but it was way too far..
so u noe opp monks..
there's a ticketing booth for river taxi..
Yes river taxi..
hahahahahaha..
fangru went to bargain the price for the damn long..
finally was deal and waited for the river taxi..
hahaha..
we were so mad and saying hello to every boat the passes by..
and our tour guide is tiffy..
hahahaha..
she will lead us by the count of 1,2,3 and we all go..
"Hello"..
they come up with all sorts of greeting can..
hahahahaha..
this ppl are so cute and fun to be with..
we got on the air-con boat and started our madness agn..
everyone of us took the river taxi for the 1st time..
so with dee's digi cam..
we took uncountable no. of photos...
hahahahahaha..
we were lk one grp of tourist visiting s'pore..
hahahahaha..
is so fun fun fun...
all in all..
i reali did enjoied myself with their laughter,jokes,entertainment,madness,accompany..
hahahaha..
love them all so so so so much...
will surly miss going out with them...
esp sonia.......
is a long entry..
so shall end here...
tml will be another tiring and fun day...
coz we'll be at sonia's hse...
swimming and eating steamboat...
hahahahahaha..
yes swimming...
i'm gonna swim...
it's been a long time since i last swam....
hahahahahaha...
gonna get tanner....
nitez everyone...
♥ Purple Love™ addicted to purple at: 2:22 AM
Wednesday, November 24, 2004
Over!!!!!!
OVerOver...
It's finally over...
Hahahahahaha..
I'm the happiest preson in the world sia..
Finally no school...
But i'll surly be the one who misses the school the most..
The kind of seating in cls listening to a lesson..
Nxt tym i wun noe where will i end up in..
Poly?ITE?Road sweeper..
If any of you see me sweeping the road come and say hi k?
hahahahaha..
Jus look at the time nw..
That's why i'm tokg rubbish..
Since when i'm not tokg rubbish rite?i oso think so..
I mus say this.................
The production of the abba's musical.......
Mama mia.......is damn damn damn awesome...........
Ahahahahahaha........
And what's the sway's thing that can ever happen to me.................
Saw ms thanabal, ms pilo n mrs lopez.....................
Watching the same show.....nvm..........
What's worst..............
Seating the same row..................
Can i get any luckier????
Buy 4D oso not so accurate can.......
Os finish le tot no need to see any teachers anymore...
End up still got to see them outside school..
haiz..too sway alr..
I think i beta buy 4D ltr sia..
Hahahaha..
Niway..
Nthg much to say..
I'm jus a simple gal now..
Simplicity is the best..
Single oso the best..
Hahahaha..
nobody noe this..
But m gonna say it here..
So that i wun have to say it with my own mouth..
things wasnt that smooth as it seems to be..
family wise is definately much beeter..
they some more haf high hopes on me to make it to a poly can..
they mus be mad..haha..
Anyway bac to the topic..
m jus suffering alone lah whenever i think of it..
haiz..even up till nw..
but wat to do..
i dun wanna be that vaneh who used to be such a problematic gal anymore..
therefore is best to kp it to myself..
others haf their probs oso..
dun wanna be lk last tym,be a abudant to my frens..haha..
sound so thoful can..
i m wat..
niway i may seem happy everyday..
but some how i'm jus immue to wateva that i'm going thru..
it seems lk part of my life..
always tryg to distract myself with other things so that i wun think..
haha..
niway m gald it didnt affect my Os..
gd that i noe hw to think sia..
but that doesnt mean i'll do well..
N level lk that O level sure the same..
dun expect much..jus a pass to any poly n i'm satisfied..
k..is morning alr...
nid to catch some rest before my interview tml..
bye ppls..
gonna enjoy lk never before sia..hahahahaha..
♥ Purple Love™ addicted to purple at: 7:03 AM
