Monday, December 24, 2007
I cant help it...
I cant help it but to text her today...
She did not reply...
I guessed she had a bad day...
So i dun wanna irritate her any further...
[which i think i did it-i manage to get myself out of who i used to be]
No matter how badly i missed her...
No matter how badly i want to text her or call her...
I held back...
So i waited...
I was waiting for her reply the whole night...
Till she called...
Was in the toilet and i told myself, i couldnt be her, dun expect too much...
When i saw the missed call, i immediately return her call...
So happy to hear her voice...
The sweet little voice of hers...
Each time i hear her voice, my heart just melts...
But well, i think if she can finds her own happiness without me...
I'll be happy for her...
I'll still be a fren like before...
To stand by u when u needed me...
I've tot over a lot of things...
And i finds it all redundant...
I should just let my feeling go...
So what if in future i may get hurt...
Afterall, love is all about being in love and getting hurt at the end of the day...
Lol...
Sadist sia...
Lol...
But seriously, just see how the feeling goes ba...
If she ever likes me, then good lah...
If she doesnt and still like that someone else in future...
She'll always have my blessings... =)
This is call, always look on the bright side of life... =)
♥ Purple Love™ addicted to purple at: 12:25 AM
Sunday, December 23, 2007
Heart pain... WHY?
Saw u cry, yet i did nothing...
I dunno what to do...
My 1st reaction was to hug u, but i held back...
I'm so scared that u might push me away...
I wish that i could just put ur head on my shoulder, for u to cry on...
I'm back to the old me...
I dun want that to hpn yet again...
I swear i'll be a gd gal to go sch everyday...
I swear i'm not gonna start contacting u until u call or msg me...
U still miss her...
U still think of her...
Yet we still, so close when we're together, why is that so...
It's really comfortable being with u, i swear...
I know i'm a very si bai person...
With little knowledge...
Dunno how to expression myself well enough...
Dunno how to give surprises...
Dunno how to an wei u...
Dunno how to joke with u...
Dunno how to put a smile on ur face when u're down...
All i did was to feel hurt to see u cry, feel hurt to see u down...
Yet i did nothing to cheer u up...
Yet i did nothing to put a smile on ur face...
I seriously feel so lousy abt myself...
I believe if ever we really got together u might regret...
Which i think i'll hold back...
I seriously feel very relax to go out with u...
Feel so comfortable like as if we've known each other for ages...
But the fact is i barely know u, and u, barely know me...
I'm sure to irritated u in future...
I'm sure i'll go back to who i was...
Can tell from the msgs...
U're irritated...
I will stop irritating u...
I will stop being so over towards u...
U're just too mature for me...
Ur thinking is more mature than me...
U're not the one for me, i guess...
Or rather, u're too good to be true, to be with someone like me...
I'm just not suitable for u...
I'm just not good enough for u...
I'm not the one u're looking for...
But i will always be there for u...
I can still be there for u just like how it was for the past few days...
On my side, i'll make sure my feelings doesnt grow any deeper, coz it seems like it is...
And i'm getting in too deep...
I'm happy to have u around me...
I wish to have u like what we were these days...
And at the end of the day, i know i'll be the one getting hurt...
How silly can i be...
But still, i dun mind...
I seriously dun...
Coz i believe i can, and i will pull thru this ALONE...
It has always been me, myself and i for the last 3 yrs, i dun see why cant i do it this time round...
I'm just talking rubbish agn...
I dunno what i said links or nt...
Is 650am, and i'm tired...
My words are contradicting, i know...
I dunno what i want, that's all i can say...
♥ Purple Love™ addicted to purple at: 6:31 AM
