Saturday, February 05, 2005
haiz...as usual...
Alrite...
Yest was fine...
Coz she wasnt working...
She was sick tho...
Haha...
Think was on wed...
She was alr sick...
Aft work suppose to go eat end up she sick so cant go eat with her...
So was in the store and was asking if she's having fever...
Den she was lk i dunno u check lah...
So was doing other things den didnt touch her forehead lah...
Den while walking out she was lk saying she very xin ku and all...
So i asked agn if she's sick...
This time round i feel her forehead...
And was alrite lor...
Think she's jus having flu and cough that's all...
So end up going to 7e to get food and we sat dwn and tok...
That was the day when she told me abt the tips money thing...
Alrite...
So yest linda and i work nite...
She hlp me with the closing lah...
She's the only in-charge that will really hlp lor...
So anyway we cldnt go hm str8 coz they got the key mixed up and linda dun haf the key to lock the kitchen...
So waited for joe to come and lock...
While waiting we tok a lot ah...
Told her why i was lk that for the pass few days...
And learnt a lot frm her lor...
Really...
She's someone i cld really trust in the outlet lor...
Yah...
So joe came and lock up...
Haha...
Den we when hm and still we continue to msg each other and 'tok'...
Haha...
Till quite late noe...
But is nice toking to her lah...
Realise a lot of things frm her and haf a diff thinking in life ah...
Not diff thinking...
But look at things differently lor...
Yah...
Certain things is best not to bother lah...
Yah lor...
So today was alrite...
Wasnt late wat...
So ok lor...
Didnt get scolding frm sally...
When i go work she went to other outlet...
Only until 6 plus den she came bac coz linda nid to knock off...
So when she's bac didnt really tok much lah...
She's jus so busy with her work...
So didnt make any mistakes today lor...
Yah...
So closing wasnt hard lah...
Nobody wan...
So nt busy at all...
Took my own swt tym still finish so fast...
Haha...
So yah...
Aft work waited for sally to finish doing her stuff den went dwn to the store with her...
Den went to cine...
Saw jovin...
but think she dun recognise me...
So yah...
We went to eat at the food court...
Aft eating go walk ard...
Was alr damn late alr lah...
But still some shops got open wat...
Den aft that pei her wait for her bus-NR2 which took ten million yrs to come...
So while waiting oso tok a lot lor...
Haiz...
the things i tok to her and the things i tok to linda is v diff...
Some things i can only tell linda and nt her...
So yah...
Somethings i will tok to sally and nt linda...
Haha...
So complicated...
But this kind of things i choose ppl to tok to wan lor...
That is wat i always do...
Yah...
So tok a lot and understand a lot lah...
Den she damn scary lor...
Say things that make me so scare...
Haiz...
Not scare but more of lk worried lor...
Haiz...
So anyway den her bus came and she went hm...
Aft that den tok to dee on the phone till i reached hm...
Yah lor...
That linda said she wanna msg me and tell me something which wasnt suppose to say in ront of so many ppl...
End up nv lor...
Haha...
Msg those kinda bo liao stuff...
Haha...
Shall go and asked her tml...
By the way i got my tips alr...
Hahahahaha...
$160...
Goodness...
That's a lot...
Hahaha...
But nid to buy my printer ink...
*sob sob*
Haiz...
Wat to do...
Alrite...
Tml am working agn...
Shall go and slp nw...
Gd nite...
♥ Purple Love™ addicted to purple at: 2:31 AM
Thursday, February 03, 2005
Oh...Going back to tuesday...Haha...
I went to work late...
Coz the day before went to drink with them...
Was so tired that i fell aslp so fast that nite...
And the nxt day i went to work and i didnt realise that my eyes was swollen...
Sally Kow insisted that i've cried...
Which is so darn nt true...
The thing is that nite before falling aslp...
I was thinking to myself...
i'm kinda drunk but nt totally...
And i tot of you...
Felt lk crying but i cant...
I dunno why...
But i jus cant...
Usually i can and i will be able to...
This tym round no...
Is so different...
I really dunno wat is cry...
There isnt a word cry in my dictionary nw...
Haven been crying for the longest tym and nw that i'm sad or dwn...
I jus wun cry...
There is jus no tears coming out of my eyes...
I seriously dunno hw to make myelf cry...
Even by thinking abt you...
Even by thinking abt the saddest things that had hpn to me...
I wun cry anymore...
All i noe is that i'm feeling so damn terrible inside...
It's because i tell myself nt to cry anymore and had been kpiing so many things to myself that i've learnt to be strong?!
Is this wat ppl called strong?!
Haiz...
I dunno...
Strong might nt be the right word...
Mayb the right word for me is jus that i'm escaping frm reality...
I'm jus pushing everything away and make myself busy by working...
So went Sally Kow kpt saying i cried...
I almost wanted to tell her...
I dunno hw to cry anymore...
And i tot of you while working...
And i finally realise...
I seriously cant cry anymore...
Haiz...
didnt cry for so long le...
Even the saddest thing oso cant move me to tears...
I felt so cold blooded nw...
Haha...
I'm feeling so terrible inside...
Really really bad...
I dunno hw to express myself...
Really dunno hw...
I'm nv gd at words to describe things or feeling...
Nv gd at it...
I cant put them in words...
I jus cant...
Who the hell on this earth cld read wat i'm thinking and let me noe wat exactly to say abt my feelings, my tots...
Haiz...
Sad,scared,confused,fustrated,angry,numb,treeible,... is the only few words in my dictionary that i think is most suitable for describing my feelings...
Who the hell in this fucking world noes exactly hw i feel???????!!!!!!!!
Haiz...........
♥ Purple Love™ addicted to purple at: 1:06 AM
Wednesday, February 02, 2005
Haiz...Dunno wat to say...read on and u'll noe...
Haf been going to work late within 2 days...
Yest and today...
Worst is i'm working at 1230pm...
Haiz...
I'm late coz i dun feel lk working anymore...
I hate this world of reality...
So scary...
I'm working wif fear in me for the pass few days...
Haiz...
Many things hpn...
And my mood wasnt good at all when i work yest and today...
While Linda wasnt working yest so she doesnt noe hw was my mood yest...
And today she was back and she saw my mood is so unlike the usual days...
Haiz...
She noes when i'm happy or sad...
She noes that there's some xin shi in me...
Haiz...
What to do...
I'm jus so tired of working...
I jus dun lk to work there...
But i noe everywhere is the same nw...
Haiz...
Kp making mistakes for the pass 2 days...
Haiz...
Is so tiring...
I'm the most senior i noe...
But aft all i only worked of 2 mths...
Haiz...
Nw i got to work for so long and many days coz ken is gone...
He had been working for 3 yrs+ wat abt me, 2 mths+...
Hw to compared?!
Haiz...
Anyway today Linda cook rice for me...
She damn nice...
Haha...
I realise who's real and who's nt...
Haha...
Haiz...
Ppl is very hard to tell...
I really cant jugde them jus lk that...
Haiz...
So anyway...
As i was saying...
Linda cooked rice for herself actually...
Haha...
Den she cook a big portion and left a lot...
So she tot of me and bring it to work for me to eat...
She's so nice...
She didnt give anyone else but me...
Haha...
So nice rite?!
I find that she's the most real person there...
Who haf nthg against anyone...
Haiz...
That's wat i think...
I haf been kping quite for the pass 2 days...
So that i wun say the wrong thing and haf any misunderstanding...
Haha...
I'm kinda unhappy working there actually...
I dunno why...
Really dun lk to work with Sally Kow...
I feel so stress and presurize...
Haiz...
Okok...
I'm working at 3.30pm tml...
Cant be late...
Late agn dunno wat that Sally Kow will do to me...
And anyway...
Seek and company came and eat...
Sally gave them my staff discount 25%...
Only for this once she said...
She told me the nxt tym round no more...
Haha...
And guess wat...
She was so pissed with me aft that...
Coz is cole sign card and the disount under my name...
They shld haf pay cash and nt card...
Haiz...
I didnt think of it oso until she kinda scold me...
Den i dunno end up hw lor...
She settle...
Haha...
Anyway today she scold me a lot...
Dunno wat's her prob oso lah...
Cant be bothered...
Haiz...
So anyway she was fine aft work...
She is two diff person when working and off work...
Really...
Haiz...
Dun lk her when she's working...
Really...
Anyway Found out frm her that my that $120 tips is actually for the mth of dec...
Shld haf gotten it on the 1st week of jan...
But my superisor dun haf the money to gif us so only on her pay day which is 28 jan den we got our tips for the mth of dec...
So is one mth late...
So nw i understand wat Sally mean when she told me i'm the 1st staff that she gave the tips aft working for jus one mth...
Coz is exactly 1 mth ltr i got my $120...
Since i started work on 1st dec...
Haha...
Is jus that it got delaied...
Haha...
And i oso noe that for the mth of jan my tips is $160...
Ahahaha...
They count by the hours we worked...
Haha...
So shld be getting our tips money soon...
Haha...
At the end of this week i suppose...
Haha...
She asked me today...
Do i haf money...
Whether i want to take my tips money 1st...
Haha...
I told her it's ok...
I'm fine...
Haha...
Looking forward for my tips money and new yr...
Den my bank will haf more money for myself...
And for paying my debts...
Haha...
Prob finish paying still got money left...
Hahaha...
So happy nw...
Hahahaha...
Tml Sally Kow nt working...
so my mood shld be alr...
Hahaha...
Wun give them a black face anymore...
With Linda ard she will always make me smile...
The things she said and do really puts a smile on my face...
Haha...
Okok...
Nitez ppl...
See u guys soon yah?!
Take grt care...
Miss u ppls lots...
*muckzzz*...
♥ Purple Love™ addicted to purple at: 11:46 PM
Tuesday, February 01, 2005
Almost...
Didnt work today...
Went out with jessie and met dee during her brk at 4pm...
We eat till damn full can...
Aft that jessie and i went to walk ard...
Den she went for her jap cls...
So i waited for dee at my work plc coz i got nowhere to go...
Den there can seat for free and drink may nt be free but today was free...
Haha...
While waiting...
Read newspaper as usual...
Sally saw my hand and was lk so er dao by my hand...
Haha...
She kp saying i very stupid...
Haiz...
Den today dunno why can finish reading so fast...
Den got nthg to do...
So asked if i can hlp with anything...
So hlp to count the stock...
Aft that clean the board for them...
Aft that went to meet dee at taka...
She told me she's hungry...
But i'm so damn full...
Pei her buy food den sat dwn and tok...
Aft which i go bac to my outlet coz they are going to eat...
But i'm nt eating...
So jus follow lah...
Den they buy one jar of beer...
And got a cup for me...
Sally kow was lk saying...
I bought ur share so u mus drink...
So u noe lah...
I damn lousy at drinking wan...
A bit only face red alr...
But wun drunk lah...
Will only get red...
So drank lk 3/4 of the cup den sally was lk u stop drinking alr...
Let ken-my part tym fren who's leaving- drink...
So i didnt drink finish my own cup...
Haha...
But wasnt drunk...
Jus very red...
Haha...
Yah...
That goes my day...
Gonna slp nw...
Got to work tml...
Bye...
♥ Purple Love™ addicted to purple at: 2:29 AM
Monday, January 31, 2005
It's so ... fake... reality really hurts...
Sometyms i jus dun understand why do ppl hate each other...
K lah...
Not so much of hate but dislike...
And hw ppl can tok behind each others back and acted so close with each other...
There are all so fake...
I'm surprise that there are so many internal conflicts within my outlet...
Haiz...
I was shock and sad...
Is lk...
Haiz...
I dunno wat to say...
I'm jus so fine with everyone and and kinda close to some...
And i hear things abt them...
Wanted to speak up for some...
But they will think i'm bias...
But i'm not on anyone's side as i've said...
I'm fine with everyone...
Haiz...
Others jus dunno wat some are going thru that's why they make such comments abt them i guess...
No point hlping ah...
This is the real society...
I mean everyone is lk that...
If there aint all this going on...
Den there will sure be world peace...
Another thing...
We jus cant expect everyone to lk us or rather we cant please everyone...
Haha...
So yah...
And ppl are selfish...
They always think abt themselves...
Is so darn hard to find ppl who put others 1st before themselves...
Is only a handful of ppl out there nw...
There is bound to be such things and even more as i grew older...
I shld try to take it easy and nt bother so much...
Coz den will only make my life miserable...
And that will only coz more conflicts...
I shall nt speak for anyone and jus listen and shut up...
That's the least i cld do i guess...
Yah lor...
Haiz...
This world is full of those ppl...
So yah...
Is scary tho...
But it's reality...
Haiz...
Damn sad damn sad...
Reality sux...
Hate living in the real world...
I wld rather live in the world of my own...
Haiz...
Reality reality...
♥ Purple Love™ addicted to purple at: 9:19 AM
