Wednesday, February 11, 2004
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haiz..
so wat if I didn't go sch.
does that makes me a bad student?
I didn't go sch n stay at hm to do my work.
I nv go out to play n enjoy myself.
so wat if I nv go sch.
so u ppl juz gonna look at me that way as if I'm so ah lian or whatsoever.
haiz..
forget it.
I am who I am.
so what if I've change.
this is me.
if u ppl can't accept for who I am then forget it.
none of u ever encourage me.
everyone juz have to say me n nag at me.
so what if I didn't go sch.
why can't u guys show concern to ask me why I've change to be lk this.
instead of not knowing why n get angry with me.
why can't u guys juz hlp to pick me up agn.
nobody knows that I can't cope with life.
so everybody juz haf to treat me this way.
I'm sick of everything.
everyone juz got to treat me that way n not even wanna try to understand me.
I don't know why am I lk this nw.
why have I change so much.
why am I writing all this.
why am I so idiotic.
aaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..
I juz hope that time will change everything.
I juz wanna let nature take it's cause.
I wanna change for the better.
if everyone thinks I'm lk that I have no will to change.
the more they say the more rebellious I get.
haiz..
forget it..
nobody knows wat I want.
including myself.
I've change to someone who I dun recognize as Vanessa.
as my dad had say,
I dun look lk a human.
human not human, ghost not ghost.
haiz..
juz wanna give up everything.
I didn't want to,
always holding on tight with life,
trying my best nt to give up.
but wat can I say nw.
there's nothing in my life that I can look forward for.
all my goals are nw gone.
haiz..
tired of everything in life.
♥ Purple Love™ addicted to purple at: 7:25 PM
Monday, February 09, 2004
Anybody knows?!
Haiz..
dunno hw to put my comment box back...
I dunno do wat to it..
aha..
I'm not gd at computer stuff u c..
haiz..
Can some kind soul hlp me?
hee..
kz..
got to go do my hm wk le..
update some other day..
Hee..
♥ Purple Love™ addicted to purple at: 2:21 AM
Sunday, February 08, 2004
SUX
Life simply juz sux.
dun like living in this damn world.
Full of selfish ppl including me.
Why muz ppl all be so selfish.
I dun understand.
WHY?
Haiz the commerce project.
What can I say bout it.
1 word sux.
Haiz..
the ****ing class juz so ****ing not corporative.
They juz so sucky.
So selfish.
I can say I hate them.
Cried coz of the ****ing class for so many times.
Who knows..Nobody!
I can even dream of the ****ing project can.
Nobody feel the sense of urgency.
Still fooling ard.
Ask them to do something lk as if I want them to die.
Com'on lorz.
U ppl r in sec 5 alr.
We've been in the same class for 5 yrs.
And yet u guys still showing this kind of attitude.
Haiz..
I've been very patient with them.
Never lose my temper to them while persuading them but wat I get in return.
Their attitude.
Hello..
Do I actually owe u ppl a living?
No lorz..
Even if u all dun wish to do den juz do it for the sake of ur CME grades can or not?!
Haiz..
Haiz..
I'm worried of the class so much but who cares.
Only a handful of us?
That's not enough lorz.
Haiz..
I've been going here n there getting things which is needed.
Making sure we can make it for the deadline.
But it seems so impossible.
I kept telling myself that nothing is impossible.
I noe I can make the impossible possible..
But I seems to be losing hope..
But by hook or by crook we muz make it for the deadline.
Haiz..
Some of us pia like siao.
The rest of u takes it lk nthg.
Haiz..
u all got hm wk so do we.
Haiz..
Selfishness is all over the entire world..
Life simply sux..
So wat if I'm stress..
Worrying bout my studies which I dun seems to.
But I do reali care..
Haiz..
Who can actuali understand me totally..
What I'm facing rite nw..
I"m tired..
Many times tried ju_ _i_g o_ _h_ b_ _ldi_ _.
But u're always stopping me..
If i die isn't it much beta..
No more worries..
haiz..
Shall end here..
very very very very very very very tired..
I"m tired of everything that is going on in my life..
-Can i really handle it well?
-Can i get this out of my mind n slp peacefully?
-Can i juz let go of everything n leave this world?
-Can i juz forget everything and start my life agn?
-Can i stop this selfishness in everyone?
-Can i be strong?
-Can i go back to who i was last time who nv did all those silly stuff?
-Can i juz live a life with nothing interfering it?
-Can i juz get started with what's more impt now n nt fooling ard?
-Can i stop all my nonsense?
-Can i juz die?
The list juz goes on n on..
There so many qn in my life which no one can ans for it..
♥ Purple Love™ addicted to purple at: 4:44 AM
