Thursday, September 08, 2005
Nothing much...
these days ah..
like very long never get into a r/s...
so can say i na de qi fang de xie my feeling for ppl easily..
not like last tym like that..
haha..
really lah..
bcoz of my busy lifestyle oso lah..
leds me no tym to go into deeper tots on all this..
my exams will bw next next week..
not gonna work the whole of next week to pia all the way for my exams..
haiz..
after my exams then work is never too late..
coz my future is more impt then money..
haha..
yup..
and as for my r/s..
is only a few days of confusion..
and kinda sad..
but after a couple of days everything is back to normal..
as i've said..
it's probably bcoz i too long nv get into a r/s le ba..
which is kinda true lah..
i dun wanna hurt myself and i dun wanna hurt anyone..
so i shld kp it this way..
and i've turn the story ard to make u believe that it wasnt bcoz i like u that's y i said those things to u..
i've saved myself for that..
so now u're convince that is not i like u..
and is coz of something else which is not true lah..
but u will nv noe..
haha..
smart of me..
but i dun care abt all this now..
the only thing in my mind now is study and nthg but study..
haha..
seriously lah..
i mus pass sia..
haiz..
and hmmm...
nthg much le ba..
dunno i still like u or not lah..
but i guess not anymore..
haha..
very "3min hot degree" in chinese...
haha..
but this is me now lah..
dunno what is like anymore lah..
haha..
come to think of it i find it so cartoon..
haha..
but well...
sounds funny..
haha..
k lah..
tml worknig at 9.30am leh..
mus go slp le..
yupyup..
today last day of sch..
then got study brk..
so tml working frm 9.30 to 5.30 and fri to sun will be frm 10-6..
haha..
then after that the whole week is my study week..
let me post my exam timetable here...
Examination Timetable - Academic Year 2005 S116/9[fri]---8.30am-10.30am---EG1001---engineering mathematics---
19/9[mon]---12.30pm-2.30pm---EG1004---analog electronics---
20/9[tues]---12.30pm-2.30pm---EG1005---computer programming 1---
22/9[thur]---8.30am-10.30am---EG1003---electrical principles---
♥ Purple Love™ addicted to purple at: 2:16 AM
Tuesday, September 06, 2005
Oh man...
What is wrong with me?!
Why is thoughts running wild?!
haiz...
*sigh..
how...
i dun wanna be any closer to u anymore..
u're knowing too much...
u're reading into me too much..
i must get out of it..
i know we can never be together tho u tot i like u which is the fact..
but time and time agn i denied it and at the same time u make it so clear that is totally impossible which is so true..
i know it myself..
therefore i seriously cant be any closer like before..
i must stop it before it gets out of hand..
haiz...
this hpn once before when i was way...
and i tot it was jus me..
but now that i'm back agn..
it hpns agn..
i even have fream abt u..
how can this hpn?!
i dun wanna be any of those to u..
i jus wanna be a grt fren to u..
someone who is there all the time to listen to all ur complains..
haiz..
i dun wanna think any further than that..
i dun dare to think any further..
i dun wan it to hpn..
it hpn once and i lose a fren like that..
i dun wan it to hpn agn..
even tho somehow i'm capable of making u mine in one way or another..
but i dun wan to do that anymore..
i've turn ppl frm str8 to crk..
i dun wan u to be another one whom i'll turn u to be crk..
i know too much abt u and i'm able to get u..
like how i used to do it last time..
*thinking back, i think i really am super good at that*
but somehow..
i dunno how to go after a gal anymore..
too long of a single life..
2 gals..
seeing them passing by..
i dunno how i used get them..
i dunno how i used to go after them..
i'm like a idiot now lah..
but that's good i guess..
haiz haiz..
*sigh...
somehow i guess u know..
but u're still treating me so nice and doing so many things for me..
haiz..
only i can stop this..
by staying far far away frm u..
yest u asked why i dun wanna accept ur treat..
the reason is this..
but i didnt tell u..
obviously i wun say..
everytime u're the one treating me..
i know my limits..
even if it's not becoz of this..
i oso know what is shy can..
everytime eat oso on u..
everytime wanna give me money take cab home..
haiz..
u urself oso got no money already still wanna be so nice to me..
haiz...
haiz......
i mus stop it..
i mus stop going out with u..
we mus stop going to that plc with..
i might lose control one day...[gosh..this sentence sounds..*goodness* dun think crk pls!!!]
haiz...
i mus stop talking to u so much..
u know too much abt me...
haiz..
and i oso know a lot abt u lor..
haiz..
but well..
so..
what rights i have to know so much..
u've been asking me to go str8 which is so darn impossible..
u know my reason but yet u still..
haiz..
u've been thru worst then me..
i know..
but still..
this things will remain in me for a lifetime..
i cant change the fact that it had alr hpn before..
this is the only way i can protect myself..
and u know it..
haiz...
u'll nv read this which is a gd thing..
coz then u'll not have to explain so many things to u if u were find out any of this..
ha..
haiz...
many things u wanna know why..
i've got no answer to all ur "whys"..
ppl..
dun ask me anything ok?!
i jus wanna leave everything behind..
i dun wanna look back..
i jus wanna live a peaceful life w/o anything to bother..
i dun wanna get into any love life..
that's y i'm single for the longest time..
i jus wanna stay this way..
so that i can be as happy as ever..
that's when everyone will see the real me..
♥ Purple Love™ addicted to purple at: 3:35 PM
