Purple Life

Thursday, August 25, 2005
am i or am i not...in love...?HUH?!


haiz..
everyone must be wondering what's happening to me..
ha..

i dunno..
each tym i'm with u, the feeling is jus a normal fren or rather a bit more then fren..
but when i hear of u with ur ex or seeing u with some other guys i feel..
jealous?!
haiz..
some how i know that he likes u..
but i dun wanna tell u..
i dun wanna look as tho i'm concern..
but deep down inside i'm really wondering did he ever confess to u..
he gives me a feeling that he likes u..
i can tell within a day..
i really can..
i may be wrong..
but most of the tym, when it comes to such stuff i'm usually right..
haiz..

i know i cant compare to ur ex..
he drives..
he's rich i believe..
but me..
i cant pick u up from wherever u are..
i cant drives u ard..
i'm poor..
while the other guy is rich even tho he got no car..
u definately wun wanna down grade urself..
knowing a gal wun never wanna go with anyone who isnt rich at all..
haiz..

now u guys know y i'm not att..
coz i'm not rich..
and i dun wanna go thru the same thing agn..
(if u guys noe what i mean..)

dun ask me who is that gal..
i really dun wish to say..

u know who u are..
but all i can say is i definately am not up to ur standard..
u enjoy life more than i do..
i definately wun wanna make u go thru poverty with me..
when u comes from a better family-financially then me..
i seriously thinks that u wun want me no matter how gd i am to u..
that's y i seem so heck care at tyms..
bcoz i dun wanna seem overly concern abt u..
i dun wanna make it so obvious..
and it's kinda suffocating inside..
is that feeling-hurt?-..
i dun wanna be another burden to u..
u're caught in between and i believe u haven forget abt him..
is hard i noe..
haiz..
but anyhow,
i jus wish that whoever ur next partner is..
u'll stay happy always..
and dun make the same mistake to let one go agn when u'll regret at the end of the day..
i hope that one will treat u nice and can give u what u want..

my tots:
why wld anyone wanna fall in love when u noe at the end of it u'll get hurt..
isit worth it, to get hurt aft falling in love..
isit falling in love a wonderful thing?!
why is there hurt in the process of falling in love and when u fall out of love?
then what's the point, when u're get hurt in anyways..
haiz..

♥ Purple Love™ addicted to purple at: 4:34 AM

Sunday, August 21, 2005
this song..is really suitable for me now!!! [Untitled]


I open my eyes
I try to see but I'm blinded by the white light
I cant remember how
I cant remember why
I'm lying here tonight

And I cant stand the pain
And I cant make it go away
No I cant stand the pain

How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
Ive got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

Everybody's screaming
I try to make a sound but no one hears me
I'm slipping off the edge
I'm hanging by a thread
I wanna start this over again

So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered
And I cant explain what happened
And I cant erase the things that I've done
No I cant

How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
I've got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

I made my mistakes
I've got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

the words in bold ah..really tell how i'm really sick and tired of this life...esp the.....
How could this happen to me...
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

♥ Purple Love™ addicted to purple at: 4:34 AM


Getting Sick Again!!!


Lydia...
i've added a tag in my blog le..happy..
haha..

haiz..
i'm sick and tired of doing my projects..
it seems so never ending!!!
i'm really going crazy le lah..
pls lor..
gosh..
kill me lah..
frm last wed till now none stop lor..
pls someone..
imagine the tirness i'm going thru..
haiz..
and i still mus work today and tml..
i'm tired of my life alr lah..
really lor..
haiz..

wed pia my cs report..
handed in on thur..
only slp less then 3hr go sch..
stayed in sch do sem project 1 is a report..
then reached hm 1st thing i did was to turn on the com..
continue with my project..
till the nxt morning agn lah..
then didnt go lect ah..
slpt at 7+am and woke up at 10+am n rush to sch for tutorial..
then stayed in sch to do sem project 2 is a presentation..
then the same routine..
reached hm turn on com..
continued with my project..
but i slpt for more hrs..
woke up at 11+am to go work today...
reached hm turned on com agn..
and here i am typing away..
didnt do anything related to project from the time i turn on my com till now..
coz i'm really really sick and tired of it alr lah..
thinking abt it makes me feel sick can..
getting so lil slp and doing the same thing..
is tiring lor..
but i noe i got to get it done..
tml work 10-6..
wat am i doing here at this hr..
haiz..
shit man..
i bet i dun nid to slp tml agn..
i'll rush hm and work on my project tml..
u'll see me online agn...

is like as if 24/7 on the com lah..
like my life only revolve ard sch,com n work..
haiz..
i'm going blind..
everyday like that my eyes is going blind one day..
seriously pain and tired lah..

i haven even fully recover from my sickness lor..
and now i'm not getting enuff rest agn lah..
and agn i can feel that i'm falling sick agn lah..
but this few times when i'm sick like nobody to take care of me lah..
so sickening lor..
haiz..
gotta take care of myself when i'm sick myself..
like wth lor..
haiz..

cant take it..
i'm not gonna do anything today..
i wanna SLP!!!!!
i still nid to work tml lor..
not i dun wanna do lor..
is really tiring lah..
nobody will noe the kind of tirness lor..
really lah..
never ending...
it is really..NEVER ENDING>>>>>>>>
my life jus have to revolve ard this never ending "story"...
same thing is gonna hpn to me[sick!!!]...

♥ Purple Love™ addicted to purple at: 4:15 AM