Saturday, May 22, 2004
Tired..
Dunno why recently I get tired easily can..
Haiz..
Anyway..
tml..
All the things is planned "nice nice" for me can..
Haiz..
Is all my dad and aunt plan wan can..
First we'll be going to visit one of my long dist relative at tampines..
And my aunt coming to pick us up at 1030 early in the morning can..
Den think we'll stay till ard afternoon den going expo and see the exhibition[dunno what izzit]but have to follow..
Then aft the exhibition we'll go eat dinner together..
Haiz..
Is lk no time to do my work can..
Haiz..
Goodness..
Haiz..
Dun feel lk going can..
Haiz..
Dunno if I should go or not..
Haiz..
Anyway today went to make my new specs with hui..
Hee..
So happy..
Haha..
$100 for the frame can..
My mom pay..
Hee..
Anyway..
I'm scared of two things now can..
Scared to go school on Monday..
As well as the stupid haunted school 4 showing now on tv..
Haiz..
So scary..
Dun dare to slp now can..
My goodness..
Not I want to watch lahz..
Is my stupid sis on the tv in the rm and somemore on till so loud that I can hear it..
Scared sia..
Anyway I'm afraid to go school on Monday coz of her..
Scared to see her..
Dunno what will she do to me..
Scary can..
Haiz..
The game is interesting..
But scary at the same time..
Haha..
I dun think I wanna continue..
Haiz..
Who knows it's a trap..
And just wanna led me on..
*I'm so in a dilemma can..*
♥ Purple Love™ addicted to purple at: 11:05 PM
Friday, May 21, 2004
Surprise..
Wow..
Guess who I saw today..
My goodness..
The person whom I've always wonder how he's doing..
The person I'm worried abt..
The person that we've mention abt..
It was him..
Yes..
Him..
Mr Quah..
Can you believe it..
It was him..
My goodness..
He's so skinny..
He seems as though he's just started teaching in middle rd in the foto in the gallery..
My goodness..
was so excited and surprise to see him..
Then aft that got back with my studying..
Haha..
Anyway..
Haha..
My interesting game had just started..
Is damn interesting..
This game is getting exciting..
Can't believe that vaneh is so mean..
I just hope that this would just be a game and not get real with it..
when to rtc..
Haiz..
Suspended for ONE day..
Haha..
Haiz..
Is internal..
So wun be that bad lahz..
Haiz..
will miss pilo's lesson..
And mayb lopez wan too..
Haiz..
Thanx to our drills that hlp us..
Anyway..
They wun call parents..
Haiz..
Anyway..
Today was fine lahz..
waited for Lydia..
Den Lydia and hui when to eat ba cho mee..[wonder if it's spelled this way]
And I stay in sch continue with my work and to wait for her at the same time coz oso no appetite to eat..
But too bad she's not back yet..
So I left and when to join hui and Lydia..
When to east-pt pa-sa-ma-lum den aft that when hm..
From now on vaneh had decided to stay back everyday to do my Chinese..
Hee..
So guai rite..
Haiz..
Anyway recently have no appetite can..
Dunno why lorz..
haiz..
Anyway I oso quite troubled by the game thing..
Haha..
Dunno why kept appearing in my mind..
Haiz..
Dunno will it get real..
HOPE NOT!!
Guess I should get off line alr..
Yup..
finally all the prob and trouble gone..
Can concentrate on my studies now..
Mayb only by Monday then will officially over..
Anyway thanx to chong who's there to hlp us lahz..
♥ Purple Love™ addicted to purple at: 10:19 PM
Wednesday, May 19, 2004
Early..
Haha..
Today am home so so so so early..
Haiz..
Want to do well will have to start with discipline first..
Hee..
Anyway..
I'm tried..
Lucky she had believe me..
Haiz..
But still have to go rtc juz to tell them..
I guess nothing will hpn to us..
Since she believe..
I can use her to hlp us if they wanna accuse us..
Haiz..
Was so angry that my tears actually rolled dwn my cheek..
Haiz..
Tot I will never cried..
But man..
I can't hold back my tears..
Kept forcing me to say..
Haiz..
Can't take it..
The whole day was so confusing..
Haiz..
My mind can't rest in peace..
Haiz..
Had been putting on an act..
A smile in font of so many ppl..
Haiz..
am really tired..
Am glad that I could actually control myself and not burst out like last time..
Haiz..
Tried not to think much..
But what she did to me kept appearing in my mind..
What does this mean..
aaaahhhh..
Seeing her makes me feeling so sick..
Kept picking on me..
I'm not the rebellious ok..
If you kept picking on me I will..
I'm obedient kz..
I did report to rtc..
I did return the letter ok..
So what's your prob..
Think I'm turning bad..
Think I'm like those bad kid in the sch..
I'm diff ok..
I dun do things to purposely get myself into trouble ok..
I hate it..
I dun wan all this prob wan can..
why muz there be so much trouble..
I wanna change for the better and things juz kept hpning to stop me..
I'm not strong..
Dun have much will to carry on..
Since so many ppl thinks I'm lk that of coz I will be I'll be lk that..
Haiz..
I'm tired..
Dun really noe what to say..
But I juz wan this things/troubles to end soon..
But she juz refuse to go rtc..
Kept dragging and dragging..
So piss-ed..
Haiz..
But juz kept putting on an act..
Haiz..
shall take it easy and cool..
Haiz..
Gonna do my work alr..
♥ Purple Love™ addicted to purple at: 6:01 PM
Tuesday, May 18, 2004
Tired..
I must have made a mistake in my previous entry man..
Haiz..
I'll take back my words for what I've said abt my frenz..
Anyway..
Things goes on well perfectly until..
That English lessons..
All that hpn spoils my mood..
I dun see my hair very short..
It does not COVER my ear is coz..
I HAD LIL HAIR THERE..
IS NOT SHORT OK..
LET ME REPEAT..
IS ABSOLUTELY NOT SHORT..
Damn irritated..
Is she picking on me..
What the f***ing hell she wan out of me..
Juz because of that stupid incident that you've caught me doing that and you wanna pick on me..
What is this..
YOU'RE TOTALLY BIAS..
TOTALLY..
As a teacher ain't you not suppose to be bias and fair to everyone..
Why can you juz judge me lk that..
That I'm such a bad gal..
Catch me for this and that..
What the hell..
I dun think is that short and I dun think I've broken any rules..
I hate this school..
The more I tries to avoid the things..
Try to stop getting into any trouble..
But each time there is bound to have something for me..
So irritating can..
Can..
Can..
Haiz..
Got to end off here alr lahz..
Got to do my Chinese work..
The drills is tiring..
Definitely..
Endurance is all I need..
♥ Purple Love™ addicted to purple at: 9:06 PM
Monday, May 17, 2004
not again..
I think I've gotten over her..
I noe we're just frenz..
That's all..
It short of hurts to see her with someone else..
But that's the way life goes..
Haiz..
Guess she don't have any feelings for me anymore..
Neither do I..True?..
There's always something that seem missing each time I told myself..I've forgotten you..
Is that true?
All it takes was time I guess..
Maybe as days pass that weird feeling..When I tell myself we're still frenz..Will be gone by then..
Haiz..
What a stupid trouble I've gotten myself into..
Izzit wrong..
It wasn't stated in black and white..
Is normal isn't it..
What's with that..
I don't think I should be punish for that..
It wasn't in black and white how the hell we'll noe..
Everyone is always doing it..
Don't they have anything else better to do..
Haiz..
Things are just so not right for me nowadays..
Why when I'm always abt to change for the better and more guai such things will occur to weigh me dwn so much so that I'll lose my faith in myself..
I hate it..
Can't I get the chance and TIME to be a better person..
Why must the be trouble aft trouble..When I've done nothing wrong I must say..To make me so occupy by the troubles and not concentrating well..
I dun think I was wrong..
Why others can and why can't I..
What's so different..
I hate it so so so so much..
*aaaahhhh...*
I probably would be the last in the cls this yr..
Really..
Haiz..
Expected..
My family will look dwn on me agn..
Haiz..
Guess I'm really that useless ba..
I've totally no interest in my studies now..
I dunno why..
I hate going to school now..
Last time I've tot the life in school was fun..
I love going to school..
Haiz..
But look at now..
I've lost my frenz..
My interest..
Everything..
Ppl looks at me differently now..
I dun like..
It seems like everything I do I'll juz get myself into another trouble..
Hate this feeling of being drift away from u guys..
Haiz..
What to do..
If they are my true frenz they would stay..
Like hui is always there..
I dun think I'll let her dwn..Hopefully..
Her studies muz have improve a lot..
Haiz..
Why didn't such things hpn last yr and let me haf a peaceful mind for my Os this yr..
Why is there always obstacles at such a critical time..
Haiz..
At times I really wish to give up..
Haiz..
*to escape is all I noe how to do.When that shouldn't be the case.I've no courage to face the nxt day's battle.*
♥ Purple Love™ addicted to purple at: 11:15 PM
Sunday, May 16, 2004
Sadden-ing
Oh man..
Haiz..
What a tragedy at this hour..
My poor Lou Han fishy just passed away..
What a waste..
So pitiful can..
Haiz..
Knew that it will die..
But didn't expect to be so fast..
Now my dad and sis changing the water..
Haiz..
Just wash the tank this aft and change the plc for him and he pass away..
Haiz..
Told my mom that the fishy can't breath coz of the pump too small and with the divider in between surly no air for him..
But she say nvm..
What the hell..
And I dun really dare to do anything to the fishy in case they fight..
Haiz..
End up like that..
She nv listening to me..
If she did nthg will hpn..
Juz care so mch abt her newspaper..
Haiz..
She should have done something bout it..
She could..
But can't be bother..
Haiz..
So xin tong..
I threw the fishy away..
Haiz..
So poor thing..
Said bye to the fishy..
Now feel so sad and bad coz always scolding it..
Coz very naughty..
Haiz..
Now gone..
Nothing to scold..
Regret scolding it..
So ke lian..
Haiz..
SAD..
*sob sob*
♥ Purple Love™ addicted to purple at: 3:06 AM
