Purple Life

Saturday, December 04, 2004
Damn lazy.


Damn lazy to blog sia.
My blog entry getting shorter and shorter.
Haha.
Anyway,
Still missing my wallet!
Haiz.
Means she still means something in my life.
Actually is not just something.
Is a lot.
Haiz.
When can i forget her?

Anyway saw lopez at my work place today.
Keep walking up and down my work place.
But didnt say 'Hi' to her.
Lazy and shy.
Think she's blind lah.
Looking at my direction and i'm walking towards her but she didnt see.
So nv see lor.
Anyway sally said she saw me.
Hmm,
Wonder when was it.
Anyway it doesnt matter.

Oh,
And my supervisor is a bung and that bung stay just beside my blk.
What a small world sia.
Den my manager asked me today whether i got gf not.
Haha.
Den of coz no lah.
Am single but not available sia.
Haha.
Since i said i dun haf gf so she asked i got bf not.
Haha.
She damn interesting sia.
Den i told her.
I haf a lot of girl-fren.
All my clsmates r my girl-fren.
*supervisor and manager is two diff person.*

Anyway shall just try and learn to upload photos here and that's it.
My entry for the day ends here.

Haiz.
I failed.
Dunno what to do so give up.
No mood to yanjiu how to upload them onto my blog.
Nxt time, maybe.

♥ Purple Love™ addicted to purple at: 1:17 AM

Friday, December 03, 2004
No mood


Totally have no mood at all.
Every where i go i think of my wallet.
Every where i go i need my wallet.
Can u imagine,
When i'm trying so hard to not think abt my wallet and yet everyday in my life i need it now and then.
when i'm paying for my food i need it, when i take a bus or train i need it,when i wanna clean my specs i need it-my GUCCI cloth!,when i need my I/C i need it,when i need to deposit money i need it.
How to forget?!
Yes i'm still very upset and affected.
But just have to put on that smile on my face as day goes by.
Haiz.
This is life.
Life still have to go on as normal.
Tho is not the end of the world still..
Haiz.
Everyday open my letter box.
Hoping for that kind soul to return it to me since there's no money in it.
But i dun think i'm able to get it back.
It is unlikely for someone to return something kind of valuable that is lost back to the owner after one day.

Dun feel like blogging much.
Shall pray that i could get over it soon.
Once i could get over it i'll be able to get over you.
I did it once and i believe i can do it again.
All i need is time and patients.
Am stronger than before.
At least i'm able to smile joke ard in front of everyone.

♥ Purple Love™ addicted to purple at: 2:40 AM

Thursday, December 02, 2004
LOST IT!


Lost my wallet.
I dun mind the content.
But i want my wallet.
Nthg can replace that wallet even if it's a similar one frm other ppl.
Damn sad.

That's hw impt the wallet is to me.
I've lost her.
And the wallet is the only thing that cld rep her that i cld carry ard with me.
But sadly i've lost the most precious thing to me and no amt cld replace it.
Damn sad.

Dun think the finder will return my wallet to me coz it's a billabong wan.
Haiz.
Such ppl odd to be punish for dishonesty.

AAAAAHHHHHH...

Where the hell is my wallet now?!
Is zero cent in it lor.
You want it i can give you even hundred for that original wallet i wun mind.
All i wan is my wallet!
I cant care bout anything that is going on in this world.
All i care abt is my wallet!
It is only when you've exprience what i've been thru then you'll understand how much that wallet means to me.
To many ppl,it's just a normal wallet.
But to me it means whole lot of things!
Can anyone understand how i feel?!
I want my wallet.
*cry*

I've to look on the bright sight and hold back my tears just now.
But i cant take it anymore...
It really mean so much to me.
The kind of feeling is the same as losing your dear ones and never will he/she return-dead- that kind.

Nthg much to say.
Mood is spoilt.
No mood to update the rest.
Coz nthg is as impt as my wallet.

♥ Purple Love™ addicted to purple at: 2:39 AM

Wednesday, December 01, 2004
It's nature~


Talk things out yest.
Both came to a conclusion that it's just human nature.
Nothing is perfect in this world.
Yes, ppl do get pissed and irritated with one.
But that does mean you hate that preson.
It's just that one few thing that you dun lk abt someone isnt it?!

If there's isnt any gossip in this world there will be world peace.
It's just natural for human beings to gossip.
At times i think ppl are just making things worst.
But i dun mind if anyone are gossiping in front of me.
And i' not gonna say anything.
That's just what i think.

Different ppl has diff point of view.
I dun think anyone comments is right or wrong.
Is just a different way of seeing things.
It may seems right for me or ok for me but it may seem wrong for others or doesnt please them.
We cant please everyone in this world, can we?!
If anyone is not happy then let them be.
That's the best solution.
If the preson who is angry doesnt want to talk then forget it lor.
This kind of fren dun want oso can.
This is my logic.

I think if one cldn't accept for who i am, i think that is not my prob.
I'm not gonna change who i am because of what others say.
That will just be so fake.
I am who i am.
If you wanna be my fren you got to accept me.
That's my logic agn.
I was that bad last time.
But am i like that nw?!
I dun think so.
That was the past,and why must ppl always bring up the past?!
I mean ok, you can never forget.Fine.
If you are so thoughtful den why cant you just stop talking abt the past.
I'm not lk that now.
I dun have that kind of moodswings lk before.
Everyone have moodswings.
But i noe myself the best.
And i noe that i'm so much better now.
And i dun come crying to anyone now.
Many things i kp it to myself now coz i noe,i've cause a lot of trouble for everyone.
I didnt tell anyone anything so that i wun be dependent on anyone when i'm dwn coz i noe i'll go back to what i was last tym.
And i believe i can be stronger.
I wasnt strong before i admit.
However that was the past.
I'm all changed.
Even if it's not very obvious but i did.
Must i report everything to everyone?
In a r/s is between two ppl.
Why must it involved so many ppl.
Fine i shld have talk nicely back.
But that was last tym.
I'm not lk that now.
I just kp saying dun ask and that's it.
I dun push,i dun shout,i dun scream.

And one thing, character dun just change within years.
It's a life time thing.
It's born to be.
How am i suppose to deal with that.
Sorry i dunno.
Fine i may be stupid.
But i dun need anyone to tell me what to do,coz i am who i am.

Why must there be things to interfer when we are just beginning to be living happily together.
I dunno what you're doing out there.
And i dun believe you will.
But i'm feeling so inscure everyday ever since i noe abt it.
And the things you do makes me feel so suspicious.
i keep imaginning things,and i felt so stupid.
I dun wish to leave either one of you.
I love the both of you just as much.
I really do.

He's such a good man now.
He doesnt drink all along.
So far i only noe he drank once coz he cldnt get to slp and that's all.
But his smoking habit is still there.
But his temper is gone!
He doesnt throw things at you, he doesnt quarrel with you.
He do most of the shopping now.
He dun ever gamble now.
He just stays at home everyday feeling so lonely.

How abt you.
You're out there working and nobody noe if there's anything going on.
Yes i'm glad you're bring income of us.
But i'm really feeling very inscure.
I dun wanna doubt you but i'm sorry,there are many things which makes me think otherwise.

I dunno what is my feel at this moment.
Happy, sad, disappointed.
I dunno.
Many things has hpn these days.
Is just out of my control.

I try to kan very kai alr.

♥ Purple Love™ addicted to purple at: 1:22 AM

Sunday, November 28, 2004
What's with me?????!!!!!


Why am i like that.
Why is my attitude like that?
Why must i have moodswings?
Why?????

I'm feeling so terrible!!!
*cry*

I'm sorry daddy..
Will you ever know how bad i feel by the way i treated you and venting my angers on you..
I dunnno what's stopping me..
I really dunno..
I feeling damn horrible..
I pitty you..
But why aint i following you??
What am i doing???
Sorry papa..

As you are getting older and need lots of hlp but i'm nt hlping you.
Daddy..

I feel this way because i felt that why aint my sis and my mum doing anything?
Why must i always be the one who is doing all this?
Why must i always be the one??
I'm just so not happy to kp clearing and you guys kp messing up!
This whole hse is so messy and you guys can stand living in such a dirty hse.
All of you just give excuses saying you got work.
So?
Working is an excuse,
How abt when you guys are not working?
Everyone just want to go out and not kp this hse clean?!

My daddy..
I'm sorry..
Your in the rain and i'm not there to hlp you.
I wanna go and give you a hlping hand.
But i dunno what's stopping me!

I hate my temper.
I hate my anger.
Why must i do such things and vent my angers on everyone?
why do i have to show you that black face when you didn't even offend me!
I think is just my mens coming.
*argh..
Irritating..

I had enuff of this hse.
Thank goodness i'm starting work nxt week.
I'm able to get out of this hse!

My heart is aching who will understand.
Why am i changing into such a cruel person.

Somebody,
Pls,tell me what to do?
What kind of person am i?

Before my daddy is back..
Feeling so sorry.
My dad is caught in the rain.
If only i'm there.

After my daddy is back..
He opened the door.
I saw him in his raincoat and helmet.
All wet holding the plastic baags.
I hlped him to bring everything in.
Asked him why didn't he called me to bring umbrella dwn for him.
He said he dun wanna bother me coz i was doing the hse work and showing black face.
He said it in a sacarstic tone the he teng me dun wanna me to show black face.
Haha.

My daddy so cute.
He's a all change daddy nw.
He's not the kind who will scold for no reason anymore.
He knows how to ren a lot now.

How i wish i could be like him.

I took like damn long to blog can.
Haijo.
From the time he left the hse till he come back.
Haha.
Coz was watching the show.
Damn nice.
My ch55.
Haha.
Miss my scv and comp so much during that preiod of time,
-From my comp spoilt to my O level preiod till it's repaired when i'm still having Os till Os is finally over.
And now here i am.
24/7 online and tv 24/7 on.
Actually is too kua zhan alr.
Haha.
Guess my electric bill gonna go up.
Haiz.

Anyway have to pack the stupid hse coz my anut all coming.
Hmm.
They are now in my hse.
Dad just now ask my accompany him coz of them.
Coz they coming so my dad cooking for them each time they come.
Haiz.
I think my dad very poor thing.
But he like the hse to be like crowded with ppl.
He'll feel happy.
So as long as he's happy, i'm fine with it-i guess.
Yah lor.

♥ Purple Love™ addicted to purple at: 1:57 PM


Hhhmmmm..


What should i say about today?
Nothing much.
Slpt at 8 in the morning and woke up at 4 in the afternoon.
Haha.

Hmmm.
I must really thank Kai Lin for hlping me with my blog.
Haha.
I'm in love with my blog.
Like lydia lk that.
I hlp her with her blog n succeed but i cant do my own.
Haha.

Back to my blog.
The words that are scrolling upwards are super meaningful.
It really describe abt ...
Haiz.
And the baby,
At one look i feel so sad and sorry for him/her.
The baby must be going thru some hard time in his/her life.
He/she seems to be in great pain in his/her heart.
Just like me.-not saying i'm cute!-
I feel exactly the way this baby felt and the words tells everything about what i really wish to say to you.
And the music in this blog is really very sad which suits the mood of the words.
And the music sounded as though i can really understand how this poor child felt.
*Feeling heartbroken just by listening to the music.*

Dreaming..

I just feel like holding on to the baby and give he/she the best that i could.
The kind of life a child odd to live,
Without worries or feeeling sad.
The kind of innocent life and not knowing whatever kind of pain the baby is going tru.
The baby look so poor thing.
*Feeling so xin tong.Feel like crying..*

All this seems to be in a dream.
The kind of dreaming feeling,
The kind of dreaming music,
The kind of dreaming image.
Haiz.

Now i know why you like babies so much.
Haiz.

Back to the real world..

I felt as though i was doing picture descripition like that.
Haha.
Like English Oral like that.

Anyway,
I'm still awake at this hour?!
Oh no.
Lydia and Hui is gonna kill me if they found out.
Haha.
Am suppose to meet them tml.
Which is like ltr.
Haha.

Anyway..

Kai Lin,
Sorry that i'm gonna copy you.
I wanna put the lyric of "we;come to my life" onto my blog.
Please allow me to do so.

Haha.
Sound so polite can.
Haha.
Thank anyway.
Thanks a million!! =)

♥ Purple Love™ addicted to purple at: 2:54 AM