Wednesday, February 11, 2004
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haiz..
so wat if I didn't go sch.
does that makes me a bad student?
I didn't go sch n stay at hm to do my work.
I nv go out to play n enjoy myself.
so wat if I nv go sch.
so u ppl juz gonna look at me that way as if I'm so ah lian or whatsoever.
haiz..
forget it.
I am who I am.
so what if I've change.
this is me.
if u ppl can't accept for who I am then forget it.
none of u ever encourage me.
everyone juz have to say me n nag at me.
so what if I didn't go sch.
why can't u guys show concern to ask me why I've change to be lk this.
instead of not knowing why n get angry with me.
why can't u guys juz hlp to pick me up agn.
nobody knows that I can't cope with life.
so everybody juz haf to treat me this way.
I'm sick of everything.
everyone juz got to treat me that way n not even wanna try to understand me.
I don't know why am I lk this nw.
why have I change so much.
why am I writing all this.
why am I so idiotic.
aaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..
I juz hope that time will change everything.
I juz wanna let nature take it's cause.
I wanna change for the better.
if everyone thinks I'm lk that I have no will to change.
the more they say the more rebellious I get.
haiz..
forget it..
nobody knows wat I want.
including myself.
I've change to someone who I dun recognize as Vanessa.
as my dad had say,
I dun look lk a human.
human not human, ghost not ghost.
haiz..
juz wanna give up everything.
I didn't want to,
always holding on tight with life,
trying my best nt to give up.
but wat can I say nw.
there's nothing in my life that I can look forward for.
all my goals are nw gone.
haiz..
tired of everything in life.
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