Wednesday, May 19, 2004
Early..
Haha..
Today am home so so so so early..
Haiz..
Want to do well will have to start with discipline first..
Hee..
Anyway..
I'm tried..
Lucky she had believe me..
Haiz..
But still have to go rtc juz to tell them..
I guess nothing will hpn to us..
Since she believe..
I can use her to hlp us if they wanna accuse us..
Haiz..
Was so angry that my tears actually rolled dwn my cheek..
Haiz..
Tot I will never cried..
But man..
I can't hold back my tears..
Kept forcing me to say..
Haiz..
Can't take it..
The whole day was so confusing..
Haiz..
My mind can't rest in peace..
Haiz..
Had been putting on an act..
A smile in font of so many ppl..
Haiz..
am really tired..
Am glad that I could actually control myself and not burst out like last time..
Haiz..
Tried not to think much..
But what she did to me kept appearing in my mind..
What does this mean..
aaaahhhh..
Seeing her makes me feeling so sick..
Kept picking on me..
I'm not the rebellious ok..
If you kept picking on me I will..
I'm obedient kz..
I did report to rtc..
I did return the letter ok..
So what's your prob..
Think I'm turning bad..
Think I'm like those bad kid in the sch..
I'm diff ok..
I dun do things to purposely get myself into trouble ok..
I hate it..
I dun wan all this prob wan can..
why muz there be so much trouble..
I wanna change for the better and things juz kept hpning to stop me..
I'm not strong..
Dun have much will to carry on..
Since so many ppl thinks I'm lk that of coz I will be I'll be lk that..
Haiz..
I'm tired..
Dun really noe what to say..
But I juz wan this things/troubles to end soon..
But she juz refuse to go rtc..
Kept dragging and dragging..
So piss-ed..
Haiz..
But juz kept putting on an act..
Haiz..
shall take it easy and cool..
Haiz..
Gonna do my work alr..
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