Monday, May 17, 2004
not again..
I think I've gotten over her..
I noe we're just frenz..
That's all..
It short of hurts to see her with someone else..
But that's the way life goes..
Haiz..
Guess she don't have any feelings for me anymore..
Neither do I..True?..
There's always something that seem missing each time I told myself..I've forgotten you..
Is that true?
All it takes was time I guess..
Maybe as days pass that weird feeling..When I tell myself we're still frenz..Will be gone by then..
Haiz..
What a stupid trouble I've gotten myself into..
Izzit wrong..
It wasn't stated in black and white..
Is normal isn't it..
What's with that..
I don't think I should be punish for that..
It wasn't in black and white how the hell we'll noe..
Everyone is always doing it..
Don't they have anything else better to do..
Haiz..
Things are just so not right for me nowadays..
Why when I'm always abt to change for the better and more guai such things will occur to weigh me dwn so much so that I'll lose my faith in myself..
I hate it..
Can't I get the chance and TIME to be a better person..
Why must the be trouble aft trouble..When I've done nothing wrong I must say..To make me so occupy by the troubles and not concentrating well..
I dun think I was wrong..
Why others can and why can't I..
What's so different..
I hate it so so so so much..
*aaaahhhh...*
I probably would be the last in the cls this yr..
Really..
Haiz..
Expected..
My family will look dwn on me agn..
Haiz..
Guess I'm really that useless ba..
I've totally no interest in my studies now..
I dunno why..
I hate going to school now..
Last time I've tot the life in school was fun..
I love going to school..
Haiz..
But look at now..
I've lost my frenz..
My interest..
Everything..
Ppl looks at me differently now..
I dun like..
It seems like everything I do I'll juz get myself into another trouble..
Hate this feeling of being drift away from u guys..
Haiz..
What to do..
If they are my true frenz they would stay..
Like hui is always there..
I dun think I'll let her dwn..Hopefully..
Her studies muz have improve a lot..
Haiz..
Why didn't such things hpn last yr and let me haf a peaceful mind for my Os this yr..
Why is there always obstacles at such a critical time..
Haiz..
At times I really wish to give up..
Haiz..
*to escape is all I noe how to do.When that shouldn't be the case.I've no courage to face the nxt day's battle.*
♥ Purple Love™ addicted to purple at: 11:15 PM
