Saturday, November 27, 2004
What's this world all about?!
Isit all about backstabbing ppl?!
Isit all about disliking one another but pretending to be frens?!
Isit all about disliking one without letting one know what's the reason?!
Isit all about disliking someone all of a sudden?!
What the hell is this?!
Was confrencing on the phone with lydia and hui.
Talk to them and found out i wasnt being paranoid at all.
I felt like shit each time i'm out.
What the fuck is this.
I'm dun think you treated me as fren.
Ppl are just putting on a stupid mask.
Didnt reveal your ownself.
I've had this fucking feeling so long ago.
But i've kept it with me.
Didnt wanna burst out.
But i just couldn't stand it anymore.
Time and time agn ppl trying to be concern.
Trying hard to provide myself wrong.
But what the fuck i get.
No reply.
Or either that no thank you.
You were once caring and thoughtful.
But it's all gone.
You've change so much!
You think i'm only concern about you?!
I do that to others as well.
You've provide to me that i was right from the start.
By your action, it shows everything.
Now i've see it clearly.
Is better this way.
I wun be wasting anymore msgs on such a person.
What's the pt?!
Trying to hlp me save my bill?!
If i really want to i will.
I don't need your hlp by not replying,not even a thank you.
Even if i want to i wouldn't even msg you at all.
You dislike ppl to talk bad bahind your back.
Would rather the person tell you frankly why he/she is so unhappy with you.
But what the fuck you're doing now?
Is that how you treat a person back when you dun even want anyone to do the same on you.
I'll never wanna borrow anything from you anymore.
If you're so afraid that i'll spoil it then simlpy reject me.
Don't have to say such things behind my back.
You've never trusted me in anything.
Even when i was ard you make it so obvious.
You think you're the only one who knows how to cook.
Stop looking down on others.
You'll only trust your one and only beloved who ALREADY belongs to SOMEONE ELSE!
The two of you just wanna be so close that everyone is so gross up.
Eachtime i'm with you, i just feel so fucking extra.
Still say i wouldn't be.
But you've never understand how i actually felt.
Do everything together.
You think you're PL isit?!
Let me remind you again, she already belong to someone else!
What the fuck you want.
Stop putting on that stupid mask in front of me.
I've had enough.
Your life is just revolving ard hers.
Stop bothering her.
She doesn't belongs to you ONLY!
I hate to go out with you.
You make me feel like shit.
Do you know what is shit?
S.H.I.T!
Ppl ard you aint happy with you and you didnt know.
You fucking attitude is so unbearable that makes me hate you more each day.
Stop putting on the -i'm the biggest- kind of attitude.
You're aint that great afterall.
I wanna be a good fren.
Who's there to appreciate?!
What's this whole fucking world up to.
So many hatards,backstabber.
What are frens actually for?
I wanna be lock out from this fucking fake world.
Everyone is so fucking fake.
Nothing is real at all.
NOTHING!
If i wanna go anywhere i'll make sure if there's you,there wun be me.
I'm not gonna keep in contact with anyone anymore.
Except for lydia and hui.
The rest of the world is just so fake to live with.
I'm fucking sad over what a fren i have.
I don't care whatever i said is hurting anyone anymore.
Coz the things they do are much more hurting than my words-acts speaks louder than words-.
You've hurt others by your words as well.
You're the one who's being insensitive and yet saying others are insensitive.
It's only words that could either mean what one say or not.
But actions shows everything that couldn't be wrong.
I don't have to go back to school anymore.
So i don't give a damn.
Like it or not i've already said it.
I could be angry now.
This could be said in anger.
But even if i'm not angry anymore,
I'll still rmb what i've been thru and what i'm still going thru!
The kind of feeling you'll never know.
Coz everything have to be your way.
You're always the right one.
I know i aint any better either.
But everyone has their limits!
♥ Purple Love™ addicted to purple at: 6:45 AM
