Monday, August 15, 2005
what the fuck!
sorry for being vulgar...
cant help it...
it's boiling inside...
this all happen when my china relatives come over to spore recently...
if it's not because of their presence none of this will hpn!!!
that fucknig uncle's birthday was today[14/08]...
was it all my fault or who's fucking fault was it!!!
the story goes...
dee n jessie bought me a cookie cake from mrs fields...
and to tell u the truth i've nv eaten their cookies before...
so this cookie cake...
my 18 birthday cake was from my precious, thoughtful frens...
didnt cut it and wanted to bring home to enjoy myself and share it with my sis...
so when on my way hm at the bus stop saw kai lin waiting for bus...
so tot of sharing it with her so cut a bit and gave it to her...
got home left the cookie cake on the table and sleep...
woke up,was late for work...
tired to tok to my mum as she's very very naggy...
i hate toking to her...
and is obvious that that box of cookie belongs to me as i bring it to the kitchen and left it on the table to make sure nobody touches it w/o imforming her what was it despite her asking...
i mean comon'..
it's my stuff...
why mus u kp asking...
i didnt said wat was it means is mine and i want it isnt it?!
so i went to work...
at 7+...
i received a missed call so called back...
was my aunt...
she asked if the cake in the figde cld be eaten coz my nice sis has bought it for ME for my birthday cake!
and my fucking act smart father told my aunt that my house got cake and say no need to buy for the china man that's y my aunt didnt buy the cake...
and comon'...
how the fuck would any of us know is that fucking china man's bday...
hello...
he dun even noe is my birthday nvm lah...
he dun have to give our ppl my cake jus like that lor...
when i heard my aunt said that it was my dad who says got cake at hm i was alr angry...
but nvm...
i wasnt that mad...
i was even nice to tell my aunt to see if there's any name written if not then they can go ahead and cut it...
end up my aunt told me nvm...
forget it...
the cake was samll and it wun be enuff for all..
so i was like ok lor...
in my heart i was kinda xin tong to let them have the cake if they were really to take it coz it was from my sis to me...
and is my cake...
so i tot that's like end of story...
when i got home...
i forgotten abt my mrs fields cake till my sis reminded me that she bought me the cake and was in the fridge and i told her the incident that my aunt called and all...
and i even told her i was unwilling to let them have the cake...
so when i decided to go get the cake from the fridge...
i rmb my cookie cake and told my sis that my frens bought me a cookie cake from mrs fields...
and she told me she ate a bit..
so i asked if it's nice...
and she search for the cookie cake and started asking where isit...
my mom told me my relatives ate it...
i was stunt!
shock!
jaws drop!
i was like shouted...
me:"wah lao what the hell..the cake is from my fren to me wan lor..."
mom:"aiya, they wanna eat so let them eat lor..."
me:"but i haven even eaten it at all and is for my birthday and is from my frens..."
mom:"you didnt even say anything and jus left the thing there and when i asked u dun even wanna ans..."
me:"pls lor...even so u oso cant give ppl my stuff rite..is mine lor..is frm my frens lor..."
then i started crying..
over a cookie cake...
my dad woke up...
dad:"wat hpn?"
dunno who told him wat hpn lah..
dad:"it was alr eaten so let them finish will die ah..we waited for u to come back and wanted to cut the cake together but u're so late..so let them eat the other one cannt isit?!"
me:"cannot lah!"
dad was shock that i answered back...
and he started scolding me for crying over the cookie cake...
kao...
he thinks that i dun wanna cut my cake meh...
pls lor..
this yr i've not cut a single cake for my bday lor...
every yr i have one..
but this yr..
NONE is cut...
i alr told my aunt that i'm working till 930pm and she herself said they are leaving this fucking hse at 9pm...
so what the fuck has it got to do with me not being home early...
no matter how fucking early i am,they wld have left...
my aunt alr said nvm...
and pls lor...
u[dad] didnt even made things clear abt the cake and anyhow tell ppl is available..
if they noe the cake is for me they wld have jolly well buy a new one for him!why mus share...
not as if my aunt is poor till cant even afford a cake..
if they cant afford i can...
but why mus share..
and moreover my cake is so small...
suppose to only be for the five of us!
i cant cut any cakes is bcoz everyone is so busy..
abd i'm out with my frens..
pls lor...
scold me for crying over the cake...
he dun even have close frens to make him feels the way i'm feeling...
he has no rights to scold me...
he himself is in the wrong and how dare he scold me!
he can
never never never understands how i'm feeling and how much that small cookie cake means to me...
it was a special cake that i've never had before...
and a cookie that i've never eaten before...
he will never understand what i'm feeling!!!!!!NEVER!!!!!!and my mom...
wanna act ignorant...
wanna defend for urself!
insisting that i refuse to tok to u and show black face...
i was simply tired...
and is not even the 1st tym u see me with that face and didnt tok to u in the mornings...
i dun like to tok so much in the morning...
and u love to ask so many qn 24/7...
aint u tired...
most of the tyms even when i'm back hm i dun even reply u...
dun u get it...
and u dun even give me any privacy...
pls...
those stuff are mine!
how cld u jus give it away and let them eat it jus like that...
so wat if the kids wanna eat..
ask their parents to buy for them lah..
not say their parents are damn poor..
well,i dun see u buying such stuff for me!
is my frens who treats me so nice..
and what u did to it...
give it away...
i hate ur action...
u dun show amy gd example at all...
so does that mean that i see so much money lying around in the house and it did show who's isit i cld jus take and give it to anyone i like?!or even if it's ur money but u didnt say i cant take it,can i jus give it away?!
is the same logic here...
and u jus cant see it...
i noe u wanna be a nice wateva...
but have respect for others property!
u're not being nice to me in any way by doing such things...
u always give them everything and anything...
and me,ur duaghter...
what the fuck do i get?!
the left overs?!
FUCK YOU!
i doubt their ability of being a parents...
they dun understand me at all!!!
not at all!!!
and my aunt...
called me abt the cake...
why didnt she even have the manners to even asked me abt the cookie!!!
my sis had cut my cake for me and gave me one infront of me..
i refused to eat it...
she said "still dun wanna eat...wanna wait till it melts then u wanna eat isit.."
guess what's my reply...
me:"no ah...i wanna wait for them to come tml and let them eat..."
and she kpt quiet...
even till now..
is still infront of me...
i hate to see the cake...
makes me feel so fucking angry and pissed-off...
i wanna make my parents regret for what they have done!
i'm not gonna tok to them!
i'm not gonna take their money...
not gonna give them my this mth's salary!
coz the money is MINE!
why shld i give it away!
aft so long i've finally cried...
dee and jessie odd to feel hournored coz i quarrel with my parents bcoz of their cookie cake...
this show how much they mean to me in my life...
i really cherish them a lot even if it's jus a cookie cake...
it's frm them..
and their xin yi...
haiz...
i'm sorry i didnt have the chance to eat the cake and it's gone now...
sorry...
even till now..
i feel so bad...
i'm sorry...
i seriously feel bad coz it's frm them to me and i've not eaten it and it's as if they've bought it for those bastards who ate it...
sorry...
if ever anyone gonna get a same simliar one is
NEVER the same agn!!!
NEVER!!!!!!!!!i will make my parents feel 100 times as bad as i'm feeling now!
i will make sure they go thru this horrible feeling 100 times more then i do...
i only pass this 18th birthday ONCE in my ENTIRE LIFE!!!!
I'll make them regret!!!
i almost left the house when i found out abt it...
i so wanna leave this house...
this place is so sucky...
it sux big time!
i hate the place and i hate my parents, my relatives!
uncouth bunch of creture!
ask them all go fuck their mther before they come fucking my entire life!
spoilt my whole happy mood!!!
they spoilt it all!!!
even till now,when i think of it i wanna cry...
i'm damn upset...
damn angry...
damn pissed-off...
damn boiling inside whenever i think of it!!!
i'm tired after crying...
my head is pain after crying...
i was so angry that all the blood all rushes up to my head and cause me this headache!!!
in comclusion...
the china ppl spoilt my family!!!
they caused my family to spilt this way!!!
all their fucking fault!!!!!!
and yes i'm sturbbon...
i wanna slp...
i'm tired of crying and scolding ppl alr...
and my head is pain...
gd nite...
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