Tuesday, September 06, 2005
Oh man...
What is wrong with me?!
Why is thoughts running wild?!
haiz...
*sigh..
how...
i dun wanna be any closer to u anymore..
u're knowing too much...
u're reading into me too much..
i must get out of it..
i know we can never be together tho u tot i like u which is the fact..
but time and time agn i denied it and at the same time u make it so clear that is totally impossible which is so true..
i know it myself..
therefore i seriously cant be any closer like before..
i must stop it before it gets out of hand..
haiz...
this hpn once before when i was way...
and i tot it was jus me..
but now that i'm back agn..
it hpns agn..
i even have fream abt u..
how can this hpn?!
i dun wanna be any of those to u..
i jus wanna be a grt fren to u..
someone who is there all the time to listen to all ur complains..
haiz..
i dun wanna think any further than that..
i dun dare to think any further..
i dun wan it to hpn..
it hpn once and i lose a fren like that..
i dun wan it to hpn agn..
even tho somehow i'm capable of making u mine in one way or another..
but i dun wan to do that anymore..
i've turn ppl frm str8 to crk..
i dun wan u to be another one whom i'll turn u to be crk..
i know too much abt u and i'm able to get u..
like how i used to do it last time..
*thinking back, i think i really am super good at that*
but somehow..
i dunno how to go after a gal anymore..
too long of a single life..
2 gals..
seeing them passing by..
i dunno how i used get them..
i dunno how i used to go after them..
i'm like a idiot now lah..
but that's good i guess..
haiz haiz..
*sigh...
somehow i guess u know..
but u're still treating me so nice and doing so many things for me..
haiz..
only i can stop this..
by staying far far away frm u..
yest u asked why i dun wanna accept ur treat..
the reason is this..
but i didnt tell u..
obviously i wun say..
everytime u're the one treating me..
i know my limits..
even if it's not becoz of this..
i oso know what is shy can..
everytime eat oso on u..
everytime wanna give me money take cab home..
haiz..
u urself oso got no money already still wanna be so nice to me..
haiz...
haiz......
i mus stop it..
i mus stop going out with u..
we mus stop going to that plc with..
i might lose control one day...[gosh..this sentence sounds..*goodness* dun think crk pls!!!]
haiz...
i mus stop talking to u so much..
u know too much abt me...
haiz..
and i oso know a lot abt u lor..
haiz..
but well..
so..
what rights i have to know so much..
u've been asking me to go str8 which is so darn impossible..
u know my reason but yet u still..
haiz..
u've been thru worst then me..
i know..
but still..
this things will remain in me for a lifetime..
i cant change the fact that it had alr hpn before..
this is the only way i can protect myself..
and u know it..
haiz...
u'll nv read this which is a gd thing..
coz then u'll not have to explain so many things to u if u were find out any of this..
ha..
haiz...
many things u wanna know why..
i've got no answer to all ur "whys"..
ppl..
dun ask me anything ok?!
i jus wanna leave everything behind..
i dun wanna look back..
i jus wanna live a peaceful life w/o anything to bother..
i dun wanna get into any love life..
that's y i'm single for the longest time..
i jus wanna stay this way..
so that i can be as happy as ever..
that's when everyone will see the real me..
♥ Purple Love™ addicted to purple at: 3:35 PM
