Thursday, November 24, 2005
what the fuck!!!
i'm so fucking pissed-off till i cried...
u're so fucking selfish!
many things hpn before and i only complain to a few about ur selfish act and now it's hpning agn!
fuck u!
how i want to get MY OWN LAPTOP BADLY!
how i wished i could have MY OWN ROOM!
told u once i'm home that i need to use the comp to complete my homework and sent it to my teacher by TODAY!
i did half way yesterday till 3am+ and i have lesson at 8am!
i couldnt wake up and ended up skipping sch!
didnt get mc coz i dun have the money to!
nvm...
i told i could finish it fast by tonight AFTER MY WORK WHEN I GET HOME!
i'm kind enough to let u used when u're using it for no reason...
jus for the sake of using it!
and i jus seat there watch tv and do nothing!
whereby i can do my work fast and slp early!
but nvm...
i kp quite...
till i cant take it and jus asked u if u're done coz i need to sent my work to my teacher by tonight and u flare up and said it takes time to shut dwn the windows too..
fine!
i kpt quite agn...
then after logging out u switch off the lights!
i've always been using the com in the dark!
each time i used it is always in the dark!
coz u want to slp!
and u think in this world only u need to slp others dont!
u think only u have to wake up early and others dont!
i always used the comp in the dark when u can used it once u're hm when u switch on the lights to used it.
and u jus turn it off when u're going to bed and others is still using the comp!
u only think abt urself!
nobody but urself!
not only this incident!
always when u're slping u would turn dwn the tv volume!
when i am slping u dun give a damn!
the lights is still on and the tv vol is as loud!
do i have to do it myself.
if that is so then u wun be happy either!
then why always before doing it u jus cant think abt others!
selfish!
everyone have to give in to u.
be it, when u wanna slp.
when u wanna use the comp!
wat is this!
i'm always using the comp last.
late at night when everyone is fast aslp coz that's when everyone have finish using it!
and doing my work till EARLY in the morning when is time for others to wake up then i turn in to bed!
now u noe why i'm always skipping sch!
i'm so fucking angry!
why everyone thinks that i love to skip sch and they dun think abt what hpn the night b4.
i have to work too.
and i'm working and schooling at the same time.
wat abt u guys.
only work and not schooling!
do u think i wanna work and study at the same time!
getting all the shit at work and have to come home and get all this shit from u when i can be home earlier if i'm not working to complete my work and when u're home i could be slp already!
if daddy have not owe ppl money i would have stopped work by now...
if mummy can afford to buy me all my tools and components for my sch work and the notes and pay for my fare, i wun even wanna work aft sch.
is only excuses when i said there is a shortage of staff at my work plc...
coz i can jolly well walked out and the cafe will still be able to run w/o me!
then why am i working so hard!
becoz daddy owe ppl money...
mummy not earning much...
and worst is, now is sch hols...
daddy got no income!
i want a addidas jacket...
i want a leivs jeans...
i want to get branded clothes...
i want to get a laptop...
i want to get a digi cam..
i dun have the money to get them...
when u've got so many branded goods...
and whenever we wanna borrow it u're jus as selfish as ever and not lend it to us!
when i have my mp3[is not even of any brand] u borrowed it...
i'm so unwilling to lend it to u..
but i still did...
why do u have to be so selfish!
why cant i have good stuff like all my other frens have...
why others can have a few addidas jacket and i have none...
why can others afford brand stuff and i have none!
why r u always so forturnate to have so many branded stuff and i cant!
why do all ur frens treat u so nice to get u that digi cam and branded watch and other branded stuff all this yrs and i get none!
i dun go for branded stuff coz i cant afford any...
is not that i dun like any!
i seldom shop coz i cant afford to get them then y shop!
if i shop, i see things that i like i could only kp it to myself coz i'll never have the money to get them!
u have a few pairs of levis jeans i have none!
u have a couple of belts, i have none!
u have addidas jacket, i have none!
u have so many branded watch, i have NONE!!!!!
i'm feeling so fucking shit inside but no one knows!
i dun want to make known to everyone even tho i know i am by typing it here...
but i dunno where else and what else i can do to pour it all out!!!!
i cried alone in the dark but u'll never know!
u'll never know what i'm feeling coz u have had the things that i never have!!!!!!
wat the fuck!
i'm so not gonna slp!
i cant afford to skip sch anymore!
i've not submit any MCs this sem!
so i cant skip anymore..
i'm so gonna be bebared for this sem soon...
if this goes on...
haiz...
i believe i can dun slp and still be able to go to sch tml..
and after sch, go to work...
and aft work then i'll come hm and slp!
is not as if i've not done it b4...
i've not try not slping and going to sch then aft which to work then hm...
but other long hrs i've tried b4...
so i guess this shldnt be a prob then...
haiz...
since fri sch starts i think at 1pm or 11am...
so..
yah...
and i'm working with linda, so shldnt be a prob...
haiz...
i feel so much better now...
but the sight of u makes me boiled up...
even tho i may be talking to u like nthg hpn...
but deep dwn inside i turly hates u so fucking much!
i'm living together with u so i have to pretend that i'm fine with u.
get it!
is not that i'm ok with u!
haiz.
okok...
why make myself so angry...
haiz...
not worth it...
alright...
i'm done typing and venting my angers...
i gotta continue my work and sent to my teacher alr...
haiz..
i'm already so pissed-off and yet the stupid files kp flying here and there in front of the fucking screen making me so fucking irritated...
wat a bunch of irritance[i think that's how it's spelled, lazy to check out the dictionary]..
byez!
talked too much...
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