Purple Life

Monday, July 24, 2006
Once Again...


When i tot everything was gonna be fine soon...
After thinking that i can forgive her...

Things hpn once agn to make me think twice...
I doubt i'm able to be so da fang...
I cant...

I'll stop work after nxt week...
I've made up my mind...
I'm not gonna work for the sake of my studies...
I cant afford to fail my maths...
I wanna ask my maths tutor if i can look for her to teach me not...
I totally dunno what the Laplace thing is all abt tho i noe it's easy...
I cant do it when the qns is rite in front of me...
Haiz...
I must work doubly hard for my maths coz i failed my common test...

since i work till not happy and my studies is not good...
I rather spent those time brushing up in my studies than to waste my time working in sucha unhappy environment...

Tho i'll have less money to earn...
But i believe i'll earn them back during my one mth brk...

My hand is rotting once agn...
It hurts so much...
It seems like as tho i've aged 40 times my age...
I'm not exaggerating...
Seriously...
It's itchy and pain at the same time...
Haiz...
Nobody will noe the kind of suffering i'm thru unless ur hand rots like mine...
I seriously looks as tho i had aids...
Damn gross...
I hate it...
I'm so young...
Yet i have sucha gross pair of hands...
Haiz...

My dad asked me not to work anymore...
Many ppl discourage me for work...
I dunno...

many a times i so feel like walking outta the cafe...
I cant take all the scoldings anymore...
I've changed...
I'm no longer the nice and patient girl i used to be...
I'm disappointed in myself for such changes in me...
I'm getting more and more rude to sally kow...
Giving her more attitude when she scolds me...
I noe, i'm bad...
I noe is not rite...
I feel guilty too...
Yet i cant control and still shows it...
I cant control it when i heard those sacarsim from her...
She's fucking sacarstic...
I cant stand it...
Overly sacarstic...
If u noe what i mean, u'll be irritated and cant stand it too...
No matter how nice ur character is...
Trust me...

Okk...
I'm trying, still trying my best to be a good girl and lives a life like what a student should...

Turning in to bed now...
Nitez everyone...
I'm Missing each and everyone of you...
I wanna meet up with u guys soon...
I feel so detected from the world...
I wanna catch up soon...
Dun forget my Birthday coming soon...
;p

nitey

♥ Purple Love™ addicted to purple at: 3:50 AM